Never Again

You said never again
Would I ever sleep alone
Would I ever cry or be sad
Would I ever hold another man's hand

I said never again
Would I love another man
Would I daydream about another boy
Would I ever lie to you

And never again can only mean so many things
I guess never again can't always come true
I know never again was just some words to you
No, never again will I love you

You said never again
Would you lose your temper, loud
Would you raise your hand to me
Would you drink til you can't see

I said never again
Would I forgive you just one last time
Would I let you be mine
Would I be the outlet that you find

And never again can only mean so many things
I guess never again can't always come true
I know never again was just some words to you
No, never again, would I love you

I will never again be the bearer of your burder
No, never again will I feel your hands
Never again will you ever again find a woman like me
No, never again
No, never again

And never again can only mean so many things
And never again is all I think when I think you
I know never again was just some words to you
No, never again would I love you
No, never again would I love you

You said never again would I sleep alone
I said never again would I forgive you

Southern Night

I slid open my bedroom window
To climb on my roof & write a song
About the boy who hit me like an ocean
Made nothing like this feel wrong

I could have just sat at home & played the game
When I'm the one thing you'll never touch
But when you promised it'd all be okay
I kind of felt that pushing rush

And I don't let the boys come near
Enough to see the freckles in my eyes
But you did something to that girl
In one slow Southern night

If I broke down all my mountains
Just to let you hold onto me
Would you send me down crashing
Without ever catching me?

And if the notion suddently struck me
To tell you all my hidden truths
Would you run with the wild horses
Or would you let me be sweet for you?

And I don't let the boys come near
Enough to see the freckles in my eyes
But you did something to that girl
In one slow Southern night

And I'm writing sweet songs
To stars hanging above my porch
They haven't heard those kind of words
You could take me downtown
Beneath those falling leaves
And I might fall for you

And I don't let the boys come near
Enough to see the freckles in my eyes
But you did something to that girl
In one slow Southern night
Yes, you could have this girl
On one slow Southern night

Just Fall For Me

Met your big brother
When I was just seventeen
He gave me my first beer
My first light of green

Met your baby sister
When I was a junior in school
We'd lay by the poolside
Drinking keg beer like we were cool

And your momma used to go shopping with me
Your daddy and I used to drink coffee
In the morning air, in your screened-in porch

But you're pushing away
From everything we once were
It's been too long
For this to still hurt
And I made mistakes and it's my fault
But I've grown up since it all
So just fall for me

You did it once, just let it go
Just fall for me

I spent the first football game
At a tailgate next to you
Drinking cheap whiskey
Arguing beer pong rules

You still say how pretty
I was in that little black dress
A Georgia princess
Fell for an Army boy with no secrets

And you danced with me on my twenty-first
Washed away all the hurt
From any other boy before you

But you're pushing away
From everything we once were
It's been too long
For this to still hurt
And I made mistakes and it's my fault
But I've grown up since it all
So just fall for me

You did it once, just let it go
Just fall for me

Maybe we knew something was right all along
Back when we were young & singing silly love songs

But you're pushing away
From everything we once were
It's been too long
For this to still hurt
And I made mistakes and it's my fault
But I've grown up since it all
So just fall for me

You did it once, just let it go
Just fall for me
You once said we were meant to be
Just fall for me

How Far

There's something in this late August air
I can feel Fall just on the other side
The dusty air is comin' down behind my old Ford
On the way home from your Daddy's house

My best friend says she knows you real well
But I still get nervous in your eyes
Don't know if I should stare too long
You just may get caught up in mine

And he works on cars all day long
Cuts grass for extra cash at night
He doesn't know how far I can't seem to go
Because I'm scared of tonight
And he holds my hand in the car
And plays country on the radio
I wonder if he can see in my eyes
How far I can't seem to go

A kiss goodnight on my driver's side
Doesn't seem like much in my age
But in late night prayers I can hope
This innocent trials can just stay

And pine trees line your gravel road
Like all the lines you start to say
You say "deny" but I know
You're just scared to fall in a craze

And he works on cars all day long
Cuts grass for extra cash at night
He doesn't know how far I can't seem to go
Because I'm scared of tonight
And he holds my hand in the car
And plays country on the radio
I wonder if he can see in my eyes
How far I can't seem to go

And I'm listening to Taylor Swift songs
Wondering if one could just be ours
I need a Southern fairy tale
A kiss as the rain pours

And he works on cars all day long
Cuts grass for extra cash at night
He doesn't know how far I can't seem to go
Because I'm scared of tonight
And he holds my hand in the car
And plays country on the radio
I wonder if he can see in my eyes
How far I can't seem to go

I just wonder if you'll push me
As far as I need to go

Rosaries

So I ran a little too far when I was free
I spent too little time praying to rosaries
Was supposed to grow up, dress all in white
Walk down the aisle, have the night of my life
I got too grown just a little too fast
Learned how to drink in bars, taught the boys how to dance
And now my education is just a piece of paper
Lying under my bed, and I'm trying to put it together
I guess no one ever taught in class
What to do after, how to stop the crash
And now, I'm all alone, living back home
All my best friends, well, they're married & gone

So maybe I ran too far when I was free
Guess I spent too little time praying to rosaries
But I never lost the girl I am within
Playing with Barbies, hoping for a Ken
Watching Cinderella, just a little too much
But I guess I can't believe in love
Yeah, I guess I lost my heart to a whiskey label
Thrown through windshields, thrown off the table
And now I'm twenty-three, trying to find my way
Guess they never tell you what they want to say

So maybe I ran too far when I was free
Spent too little time praying to rosaries
But my mommy promised that I'd be okay
So I keep waking up, pushing every day
And I told my dad, someday I'll be better
So I run around, trying to put it together
And I never found a man to treat me
Like I was the winning ticket in life's lottery
So I just came home to my hometown
To find some boys running all around
And when one promised me some kind of tomorrow
No one knew of all the money he borrowed
And the time he took his anger out on me
Guess it was just time for me to run free

So maybe I ran just a little to far when I was free
Maybe I spent too little time praying to rosaries
But God is somewhere, something forgiving
And Church ain't nothing but burning beginnings
So I ran a little too far when I was free
So I stopped praying to rosaries
So I ran to boys, books, and broken hearts
So I stopped praying for all new starts
So I couldn't save the money to get out
So I don't own the car, the boat, or the house
So my loans are long, and my degree is a fake
So I spent years chasing an endless fate

So I ran a little too far when I was free
So I spent too little time praying to rosaries
Just play the song, I'll light the candles
Put a vinyl on, stare at the turntable for hours
Take a sip, a shower, and new night
Promise myself it'll be alright

So maybe I ran too far when I was free
Maybe I spent too little time with rosaries
But I'm a good woman, just a little broke
When it comes to money, a good heart, a good note
I came back home, found my family
Found an old Bible, my rosary
Just sat down with a pen & a page
I just refuse to act my age.

Moving

In this summer air you're moving
Taking me just one step higher
Sitting on your backsteps I'm moving
Just watching that full moon go higher

And with a kiss goodnight, I'm leaving
But we both know who will call first
Taking backroads through the steamed pines
En route to my old smalltown

And I'm dreading the day I can't hold back anymore
And I'm hating the fact that you already know me
Better than most of these locals
Wandering around with gossip about these streets
And I'm dreading the day I know my dumb mouth
Will tell you everything to know about me
But until that day come crashing
I'm just going to keep moving

Park my car, turn the headlights out
Walking through the dew-soaked grass
Up the steps of my folks' front porch
Hoping they won't wake & hear me

It's too late to do much but lie here
But my brain it just keeps moving
Into dark dreams of what could soon be
And my past is just a memory

And I'm dreading the day I can't hold back anymore
And I'm hating the fact that you already know me
Better than most of these locals
Wandering around with gossip about these streets
And I'm dreading the day I know my dumb mouth
Will tell you everything to know about me
But until that day come crashing
I'm just going to keep moving

In my sheets I wonder if you'd ever say
The same things running me into a panic
Hoping I'm not the only one awake
Hoping that you're in your head moving

And I'm dreading the day I can't hold back anymore
And I'm hating the fact that you already know me
Better than most of these locals
Wandering around with gossip about these streets
And I'm dreading the day I know my dumb mouth
Will tell you everything to know about me
But until that day come crashing
I'm just going to keep moving

Coast

Sometimes I think I should keep my mouth shut
Thoughts keep spewing out like lava onto ash
Just hoping something might light you up
Just hoping you can make me feel a little less bad
It's dark tonight, but I can still see stars
And the air is thick, hello Southern summer
Your eyes are something I can feel pressing on my skin
I'm not going to beg you to take me in

What are we moving against?
Why do I feel like I'm pushing so damn hard
Just to find something that feels a little more real?
If you ask, I might let you have my heart

And broken windows, they don't ever heal
The cracks just spread with time til they fall
If I had known you in a past moment
Maybe I'd have something for you to feel
Tell me a story, make me relax
I don't know how to be that girl anymore
But with this bottle I feel less lonely
With that bottle you're opening a door

What are we moving against?
Why do I feel like I'm pushing so damn hard
Just to find something that feels a little more real?
If you ask, I might let you have my heart

So ask me, just push me, because I want to
I want to be someone a little less numb
Want to lie in a sandy darkness on the coast
Want to run away, do you want to be lost?

What are we moving against?
Why do I feel like I'm pushing so damn hard
Just to find something that feels a little more real?
If you ask, I might let you have my heart
Tell me you just want my heart

Someone

I wish I could just feel okay
Without a few drinks simmering inside
Take the frames off your walls
That wood won't ever look the same
I don't know how you faked this for so long
I can't even fake a smile
You ran away to some girl with blue eyes
I wonder now if she knows your lies
I never once ran away from home
Only back here when things got hard
I sometimes miss that camo-covered man
The hometown hero who still loves me anyways
How can he see right through me
Yet embrace me and all my holes
That I've fallen into, every damn day
My mom keeps promising it'll be okay
I hope you feel guilty for everything you did
I think you might have broke my heart
Not in the metaphorical sort of manner
But the kind you just can't fix
A boy asked me out today
Since when did text messages become the way
What happened to the gentlemen
The flowers, and picking me up in your truck
Someone just open a damn door
Someone just hold my hands
Someone take care of me, just once,
Promise me it'll be okay
I'm sick of lighting candles, spending my nights
With a bottle of wine and Ryan Adams' songs
To ease this pain, erase your memories
But I wake up and it's still just the same
Someone take me out of here
Someone write for me
Someone told me that my songs were too sad
Then someone needs to give me a reason to breathe
My sister tells me what her world has become
And I swear it'll never be that way again
I will never promise a man I'll always stay
They just take advantage that way
No one is ever going to read down this far
And maybe this isn't as well-written as I'd like
But this old cd is on repeat in the background
No amount of ink will drown this out
Someone say you need me
Someone sit on my porch
Someone once promised me forever
And now someone is all gone
I once drove too fast down Graves Road
Late at night, after a few drinks
In my old Ford, to see your face
And make sure that you were okay
I once told my mom I was at my best friends
Just to sleep in your arms
On your mattress, lying on the ground
Of the bedroom loft at your parents house
I wrote you songs. I pet your cat.
I spent days with your sister
Giving her advice on the boys in school
I bought your sister-in-law a Christmas present
I held your hand when you cried
Someone ask him why he lied
Someone tell him you killed her inside
I refuse to let you know I'm weak
But sometimes I still just cry
You won, you won, you broke the girl
Who broke down all her walls to love you
Someone hit him in the face
Someone put your hands around his throat
Someone tell him he ain't that big
Nor is he as cute as I swore he was
I don't know how to end this
Somehow I let you walk away with my all
Even after I brought you all your things
You still kept my clothes
It's just like you to take my things away
It's just like me to give you too much time
So let's somehow make this the end
I'm all alone now and I feel just fine
Someone tell him this is ending
Someone end this with me.

Come Down

Sitting on my same old bed
Listening to the mixtape you sent
It's been a year
Why are you still haunting here?
Remember when I promised
There would be no more words
But in these songs, you're all I heard

I'm still alone in this smalltown
His love, it wasn't what I thought I found
It's been a year
Since I dropped my last tear
Out in your parking lot
Down the street from where we worked
I can tell you now, it still hurts

And I don't know why I can't just seem to let go
My daddy swears it's a flaw
Hold my faults up, yes, she's still in your life
And nothing really has changed
I threw rocks at your bedroom window once
And everything must come down
I guess I just need to come down

I hate the memories of his truck
The thoughts of dirt roads & lover's luck
I hate memories of our roadtrips
And the taste of our first kiss
He hated your ghost
And I hate his now
Why can't this all just slow down?

And I don't know why I can't just seem to let go
My daddy swears it's a flaw
Hold my faults up, yes, she's still in your life
And nothing really has changed
I threw rocks at your bedroom window once
And everything must come down
I guess I just need to come down

So I un-pin your pictures from the corkboard
Hanging in my bedroom at my parents' house
I had to come back here to run away from being free
And I thought in his love I had found everything
But I found nothing

And I don't know why I can't just seem to let go
My daddy swears it's a flaw
Hold my faults up, yes, she's still in your life
And nothing really has changed
I threw rocks at your bedroom window once
And everything must come down
I guess I just need to come down

All I Really Need

I just wanted all your attention
Just for a second, pretend your mine
I don't want to fall in love again
Just wanted someone to fill the time
I know you're never going to be the one
Just wanted one person to hold onto
If you could just fill in this loneliness
If you could just pretend it's me and you

I know you have your own battles
I know you sit in the dark at night
I know how you feel the emptiness
I know you just want to do what's right
Don't you ever just want to feel that heat?
I just wanted you for my soul's sake
I didn't want you to be my boyfriend
I just wanted to feel you til I break

So just lie here
And just call me
Just say I'm all you ever need
Just lie to me babe
Just one more time
This is all I really need

I just wanted all your attention
I wanted your late night phone calls
The texts begging me to be by your side
The words pretending all your falls
I know I'm nothing like your type
I probably smile just too much
So don't believe that I'm falling now
So don't think I'm in too much a rush

I feel the black on your skin
From the bruises every dumb girl gave
You just wanted what I wanted more
Let's just lie here in your silly cave
Making shadows on your walls
Faking every single brown eye stare
Let's just hold onto each other tonight
Why can't we just pretend to care?

So just lie here
And just call me
Just say I'm all you ever need
Just lie to me babe
Just one more time
This is all I really need

So just lie here
And just call me
Baby, you're all I'll ever need
Just lie to me babe
Just this one time
This is all I really need

I smell the smoke coming off your skin
Don't ask what all I'll give in

So just lie here
And just call me
Just say I'm all you ever need
Just lie to me babe
Just one more time
This is all I really need

Athens

Just like an old country song
Woke up, knew something's wrong
I ain't where I'm supposed to be
Who's that breathing next to me?
Don't know where my old jeans went
Don't wanna know the rules I bent
Try to find my phone, but it's just dead
Just wanna go home, get out of this bed

I don't know where I am right now
But that it's a short, short ride back to that college town

Thank you Athens, for the headache again
All the regrets running through my head
Don't know why I keep comin' here
I know it ain't all the cheap beer
My friends and I, acted like fools
Don't know how I ever made it through school
I know, in two days I'll forget these mistakes
And come back to Athens, and the rules it breaks

Found my jeans under the nightstand
Tried to walk out, but I don't think I can
Is this a trailer? I think it's a doublewide
Don't even want to walk outside
That sun is banging on my brain
Noticed on my shirt a Natty stain
Where's my best friend? Get on up
Gotta get out of here in their truck

I don't know where I am right now
But that it's a short, short ride back to that college town

Thank you Athens, for the headache again
All the regrets running through my head
Don't know why I keep comin' here
I know it ain't all the cheap beer
My friends and I, acted like fools
Don't know how I ever made it through school
I know, in two days I'll forget these mistakes
And come back to Athens, and the rules it breaks

This Georgia town ain't that bad in June
Just wait til football season, you'll wake up and won't be able to move

Thank you Athens, for the headache again
All the regrets running through my head
Don't know why I keep comin' here
I know it ain't all the cheap beer
My friends and I, acted like fools
Don't know how I ever made it through school
I know, in two days I'll forget these mistakes
And come back to Athens, and the rules it breaks

Imaginary Friend

I am sitting here
Listening to these sad songs
Just drinking beer
Trying to stay clear
Of your memories
Everyone says to forget
But I can't help it
You had a part of me

But I guess the man I loved was someone you made up
How do you get over someone who never loved you?

But tonight I'm going to dream of you
Remember all the sweet things you do
But when I wake
You'll be still be the boy I Hate
You faked it all this time
and held me through those hard times
But you really never were
The man you promised you could be
And I suppose
I am just missing
My imaginary friend

Sometimes I miss your hands
Holding on to mine
But you weren't really a man
It didn't take me much time
You put your palms against my throat
I walked away, feelin' choked
By these lonely blues
How did I ever love you?

But tonight I'm going to dream of you
Remember all the sweet things you do
But when I wake
You'll be still be the boy I Hate
You faked it all this time
and held me through those hard times
But you really never were
The man you promised you could be
And I suppose
I am just missing
My imaginary friend

And now this new girl is walking around pretending to be me
She has my t-shirts, but you have my memories
Just know no matter what, she will never be me

I gotta ask
In this empty dark
How did you\
Ever let it go this far?

But tonight I'm going to dream of you
Remember all the sweet things you do
But when I wake
You'll be still be the boy I hate
You faked it all this time
And held me through those hard times
But you really never were
The man you promised you could be
And I suppose
I am just missing
My imaginary friend

Yes I suppose
You were never really real to begin with
No you never
Were truly a real man

But tonight I refuse to dream of you
I'll only remember the things you put me through
Your hands hurting me
You still just be a memory
You faked it all this time
and held me through those hard times
But you really never were
The man you promised you could be
And I know
Yes I know
And I know
I'll stop missing
My imaginary man

You were just imaginary
You made it up for me

You were never were real

And I know
You were just imaginary
You faked everything
Yes, you ain't real
No, you weren't never really real
Yes I know
You were just
An imagainary friend