Feel This Way

There's something in your eyes
That's taking me away
I'm trying so hard to fight the urge
To say what I want to say
Like how I have a crush
On the one who doesn't see
How I'd like to settle down
With a nice boy with whom I can't breathe

And it isn't fair the way you make me smile
Because everyone can see
I feel like the high school girl I once was
Writing sappy poetry

I'm drawing hearts on paper notebooks
And I'm lighting up when they say your name
I'm singing bad love songs in my car when I'm all alone
Because no one can know I feel this way
And I'm daydreaming about your face
Your voice, your eyes, wondering how you'd taste
And I'm trying hard not to look for you when you're standing in the same room
Because no one can know I feel this way

I know what you say
You think about me
About how I talk too much
Or about how I'm at all the parties
But I can tell
Veiled in all your remarks
There's that shining in your eyes
Of a tiny little spark

And it isn't fair the way you make me smile
Because everyone can see
I feel like the high school girl I once was
Writing sappy poetry

I'm drawing hearts on paper notebooks
And I'm lighting up when they say your name
I'm singing bad love songs in my car when I'm all alone
Because no one can know I feel this way
And I'm daydreaming about your face
Your voice, your eyes, wondering how you'd taste
And I'm trying hard not to look for you when you're standing in the same room
Because no one can know I feel this way

I hate your jokes
And the messes that you make
I hate it when you're right
And the girls you take on dates
But for all that I can't stand
I can't stand how I feel about you
Would you just stop making me
Feel this silly way over you?

And it isn't fair the way you make me smile
Because everyone can see
I feel like the high school girl I once was
Writing sappy poetry

I'm drawing hearts on paper notebooks
And I'm lighting up when they say your name
I'm singing bad love songs in my car when I'm all alone
Because no one can know I feel this way
And I'm daydreaming about your face
Your voice, your eyes, wondering how you'd taste
And I'm trying hard not to look for you when you're standing in the same room
Because no one can know I feel this way
No, no one can know I feel this way

Right Thing

Don't know how to break the news
There wasn't much of a conclusion to wanting you
And I heard that you're moving on too
I guess my hazel eyes weren't enough for you

And you weren't to be much more than a rebound
Let you steal my heart, back in our hometown
I remember a cold night by the lake
Where we spoke of a distant dream lying on the planks

I hate to seem like I came on too strong but in truth
You came onto me, like I smiled back at you
And you're running after something you ain't sure what to call
Turned different shades like the leaves that fall

Just forget it, it's not me, it's always you
I can only tell you only what was the truth
You asked if you were wasting your time
I wasn't wasting yours; were you wasting mine?
My Daddy always says the right thing is the hardest thing to do

We were once just some kids smiling through
I held bottles in my hands like I held onto you
The taste of bittersweet on my lips
Just like the night of our first kiss

Saw your best friend, in the bar we met
Said you didn't know how to hold onto what you get
But you had your chance with the girl you chased
Like the wind that pushed back the hair from my face

I hate to seem like I came on too strong but in truth
You came onto me, like I smiled back at you
And you're running after something you ain't sure what to call
Turned different shades like the leaves that fall

Just forget it, it's not me, it's always you
I can only tell you only what was the truth
You asked if you were wasting your time
I wasn't wasting yours; were you wasting mine?
My Daddy always says the right thing is the hardest thing to do

Just forget it, it's not me, it's always you
I can only tell you what was once the truth
You asked if you were wasting your time
I wasn't wasting yours, were you wasting mine?
I guess I just was too hard to do
I guess the right thing was just too hard to hold onto

Love I Just Can't Find

I guess I'm not one to write love songs
But our story just can't go down
As some little thing I tell my friends about
Or the late night calls when you're out of town

Sometimes it's hard to fight the need
To hear your voice at three a.m.
When the tears are pouring like the beers I drank
To get me through the days I just can't

Sometimes you'll apologize for it
Say it's not me, but it's all you and work
I guess I need to realize time is calling
For us to somehow heal all this hurt

And when you're lonely I'll drive the hundred miles
To your house on down south on the state line
And when I'm lonely I'll call a hundred times
To tell you you're the love I just can't find

You kiss some girl in a bar tonight
Who's had one too few & reminds you
Of the girl you met in front of an old bar
In a classic city singing of Georgia true

I'll find someone to hold me through the inbetween
Of your last weekend here back home
When you told me you loved me in a parkling lot
Laced in grass and cobblestone

And when you're lonely I'll drive the hundred miles
To your house on down south on the state line
And when I'm lonely I'll call a hundred times
To tell you you're the love I just can't find

I still write you letters sometimes like I did
The year that broke the two of us apart
You sat in sand while I'll played this dumb college girl
I sent you boxes and sent us back to the start

Your pictures are in a box hidden in my closet
I pull them our sometimes to remember who we were
We make promises that someday we'll come back to that
Just know that my home is where ever you are

And when you're lonely I'll drive the hundred miles
To your house on down south on the state line
And when I'm lonely I'll call a hundred times
To tell you you're the love I just can't find
You'll always be that love I just can't find

It's Not Me

Standing in your street like a bunch of teenagers
Counting stars in an early Autumn sky
Guess when your mom says it's time to grow up
We shouldn't ask why

That old girlfriend is still haunting in your head
It ain't fair because we both know I'm sweet
Wearing my old blue jeans holding onto our hand
I'm all you could ever need

I know they say nice guys finish last
Maybe they should ask the girls next door how it feels
To be second place because your face smiles just too much
And youu don't have a mean streak
I know they say it's best to play hard to get
Maybe it's bad I'm only good with Football games
It's the kind of thing the boys all say they're looking for
But somehow it's not me

You say you miss the Tennessee nights
The old friends, the way it used to be
I fake a smile, all the while, I'm loving this place
A small pond and pine trees

This September chill makes me wish you'd keep me warm
But you're busy wondering what she's doing now
I'm trying to be coy so you can pay attention to me
But I don't know how

I know they say nice guys finish last
Maybe they should ask the girls next door how it feels
To be second place because your face smiles just too much
And youu don't have a mean streak
I know they say it's best to play hard to get
Maybe it's bad I'm only good with Football games
It's the kind of thing the boys all say they're looking for
But somehow it's not me

And we both know who you call late at night
When she breaks your heart on the phone
And we both know who you'll ask to stay
So you don't have to sleep alone
And we both know you need me here, you need me in your life
Don't you damn know why?

I know they say nice guys finish last
Maybe they should ask the girls next door how it feels
To be second place because your face smiles just too much
And youu don't have a mean streak
I know they say it's best to play hard to get
Maybe it's bad I'm only good with Football games
It's the kind of thing the boys all say they're looking for
But somehow it's not me
Why can't it be me?
Oh, why can't it just be me?

Never Again

You said never again
Would I ever sleep alone
Would I ever cry or be sad
Would I ever hold another man's hand

I said never again
Would I love another man
Would I daydream about another boy
Would I ever lie to you

And never again can only mean so many things
I guess never again can't always come true
I know never again was just some words to you
No, never again will I love you

You said never again
Would you lose your temper, loud
Would you raise your hand to me
Would you drink til you can't see

I said never again
Would I forgive you just one last time
Would I let you be mine
Would I be the outlet that you find

And never again can only mean so many things
I guess never again can't always come true
I know never again was just some words to you
No, never again, would I love you

I will never again be the bearer of your burder
No, never again will I feel your hands
Never again will you ever again find a woman like me
No, never again
No, never again

And never again can only mean so many things
And never again is all I think when I think you
I know never again was just some words to you
No, never again would I love you
No, never again would I love you

You said never again would I sleep alone
I said never again would I forgive you

Southern Night

I slid open my bedroom window
To climb on my roof & write a song
About the boy who hit me like an ocean
Made nothing like this feel wrong

I could have just sat at home & played the game
When I'm the one thing you'll never touch
But when you promised it'd all be okay
I kind of felt that pushing rush

And I don't let the boys come near
Enough to see the freckles in my eyes
But you did something to that girl
In one slow Southern night

If I broke down all my mountains
Just to let you hold onto me
Would you send me down crashing
Without ever catching me?

And if the notion suddently struck me
To tell you all my hidden truths
Would you run with the wild horses
Or would you let me be sweet for you?

And I don't let the boys come near
Enough to see the freckles in my eyes
But you did something to that girl
In one slow Southern night

And I'm writing sweet songs
To stars hanging above my porch
They haven't heard those kind of words
You could take me downtown
Beneath those falling leaves
And I might fall for you

And I don't let the boys come near
Enough to see the freckles in my eyes
But you did something to that girl
In one slow Southern night
Yes, you could have this girl
On one slow Southern night

Just Fall For Me

Met your big brother
When I was just seventeen
He gave me my first beer
My first light of green

Met your baby sister
When I was a junior in school
We'd lay by the poolside
Drinking keg beer like we were cool

And your momma used to go shopping with me
Your daddy and I used to drink coffee
In the morning air, in your screened-in porch

But you're pushing away
From everything we once were
It's been too long
For this to still hurt
And I made mistakes and it's my fault
But I've grown up since it all
So just fall for me

You did it once, just let it go
Just fall for me

I spent the first football game
At a tailgate next to you
Drinking cheap whiskey
Arguing beer pong rules

You still say how pretty
I was in that little black dress
A Georgia princess
Fell for an Army boy with no secrets

And you danced with me on my twenty-first
Washed away all the hurt
From any other boy before you

But you're pushing away
From everything we once were
It's been too long
For this to still hurt
And I made mistakes and it's my fault
But I've grown up since it all
So just fall for me

You did it once, just let it go
Just fall for me

Maybe we knew something was right all along
Back when we were young & singing silly love songs

But you're pushing away
From everything we once were
It's been too long
For this to still hurt
And I made mistakes and it's my fault
But I've grown up since it all
So just fall for me

You did it once, just let it go
Just fall for me
You once said we were meant to be
Just fall for me

How Far

There's something in this late August air
I can feel Fall just on the other side
The dusty air is comin' down behind my old Ford
On the way home from your Daddy's house

My best friend says she knows you real well
But I still get nervous in your eyes
Don't know if I should stare too long
You just may get caught up in mine

And he works on cars all day long
Cuts grass for extra cash at night
He doesn't know how far I can't seem to go
Because I'm scared of tonight
And he holds my hand in the car
And plays country on the radio
I wonder if he can see in my eyes
How far I can't seem to go

A kiss goodnight on my driver's side
Doesn't seem like much in my age
But in late night prayers I can hope
This innocent trials can just stay

And pine trees line your gravel road
Like all the lines you start to say
You say "deny" but I know
You're just scared to fall in a craze

And he works on cars all day long
Cuts grass for extra cash at night
He doesn't know how far I can't seem to go
Because I'm scared of tonight
And he holds my hand in the car
And plays country on the radio
I wonder if he can see in my eyes
How far I can't seem to go

And I'm listening to Taylor Swift songs
Wondering if one could just be ours
I need a Southern fairy tale
A kiss as the rain pours

And he works on cars all day long
Cuts grass for extra cash at night
He doesn't know how far I can't seem to go
Because I'm scared of tonight
And he holds my hand in the car
And plays country on the radio
I wonder if he can see in my eyes
How far I can't seem to go

I just wonder if you'll push me
As far as I need to go

Rosaries

So I ran a little too far when I was free
I spent too little time praying to rosaries
Was supposed to grow up, dress all in white
Walk down the aisle, have the night of my life
I got too grown just a little too fast
Learned how to drink in bars, taught the boys how to dance
And now my education is just a piece of paper
Lying under my bed, and I'm trying to put it together
I guess no one ever taught in class
What to do after, how to stop the crash
And now, I'm all alone, living back home
All my best friends, well, they're married & gone

So maybe I ran too far when I was free
Guess I spent too little time praying to rosaries
But I never lost the girl I am within
Playing with Barbies, hoping for a Ken
Watching Cinderella, just a little too much
But I guess I can't believe in love
Yeah, I guess I lost my heart to a whiskey label
Thrown through windshields, thrown off the table
And now I'm twenty-three, trying to find my way
Guess they never tell you what they want to say

So maybe I ran too far when I was free
Spent too little time praying to rosaries
But my mommy promised that I'd be okay
So I keep waking up, pushing every day
And I told my dad, someday I'll be better
So I run around, trying to put it together
And I never found a man to treat me
Like I was the winning ticket in life's lottery
So I just came home to my hometown
To find some boys running all around
And when one promised me some kind of tomorrow
No one knew of all the money he borrowed
And the time he took his anger out on me
Guess it was just time for me to run free

So maybe I ran just a little to far when I was free
Maybe I spent too little time praying to rosaries
But God is somewhere, something forgiving
And Church ain't nothing but burning beginnings
So I ran a little too far when I was free
So I stopped praying to rosaries
So I ran to boys, books, and broken hearts
So I stopped praying for all new starts
So I couldn't save the money to get out
So I don't own the car, the boat, or the house
So my loans are long, and my degree is a fake
So I spent years chasing an endless fate

So I ran a little too far when I was free
So I spent too little time praying to rosaries
Just play the song, I'll light the candles
Put a vinyl on, stare at the turntable for hours
Take a sip, a shower, and new night
Promise myself it'll be alright

So maybe I ran too far when I was free
Maybe I spent too little time with rosaries
But I'm a good woman, just a little broke
When it comes to money, a good heart, a good note
I came back home, found my family
Found an old Bible, my rosary
Just sat down with a pen & a page
I just refuse to act my age.

Moving

In this summer air you're moving
Taking me just one step higher
Sitting on your backsteps I'm moving
Just watching that full moon go higher

And with a kiss goodnight, I'm leaving
But we both know who will call first
Taking backroads through the steamed pines
En route to my old smalltown

And I'm dreading the day I can't hold back anymore
And I'm hating the fact that you already know me
Better than most of these locals
Wandering around with gossip about these streets
And I'm dreading the day I know my dumb mouth
Will tell you everything to know about me
But until that day come crashing
I'm just going to keep moving

Park my car, turn the headlights out
Walking through the dew-soaked grass
Up the steps of my folks' front porch
Hoping they won't wake & hear me

It's too late to do much but lie here
But my brain it just keeps moving
Into dark dreams of what could soon be
And my past is just a memory

And I'm dreading the day I can't hold back anymore
And I'm hating the fact that you already know me
Better than most of these locals
Wandering around with gossip about these streets
And I'm dreading the day I know my dumb mouth
Will tell you everything to know about me
But until that day come crashing
I'm just going to keep moving

In my sheets I wonder if you'd ever say
The same things running me into a panic
Hoping I'm not the only one awake
Hoping that you're in your head moving

And I'm dreading the day I can't hold back anymore
And I'm hating the fact that you already know me
Better than most of these locals
Wandering around with gossip about these streets
And I'm dreading the day I know my dumb mouth
Will tell you everything to know about me
But until that day come crashing
I'm just going to keep moving

Coast

Sometimes I think I should keep my mouth shut
Thoughts keep spewing out like lava onto ash
Just hoping something might light you up
Just hoping you can make me feel a little less bad
It's dark tonight, but I can still see stars
And the air is thick, hello Southern summer
Your eyes are something I can feel pressing on my skin
I'm not going to beg you to take me in

What are we moving against?
Why do I feel like I'm pushing so damn hard
Just to find something that feels a little more real?
If you ask, I might let you have my heart

And broken windows, they don't ever heal
The cracks just spread with time til they fall
If I had known you in a past moment
Maybe I'd have something for you to feel
Tell me a story, make me relax
I don't know how to be that girl anymore
But with this bottle I feel less lonely
With that bottle you're opening a door

What are we moving against?
Why do I feel like I'm pushing so damn hard
Just to find something that feels a little more real?
If you ask, I might let you have my heart

So ask me, just push me, because I want to
I want to be someone a little less numb
Want to lie in a sandy darkness on the coast
Want to run away, do you want to be lost?

What are we moving against?
Why do I feel like I'm pushing so damn hard
Just to find something that feels a little more real?
If you ask, I might let you have my heart
Tell me you just want my heart

Someone

I wish I could just feel okay
Without a few drinks simmering inside
Take the frames off your walls
That wood won't ever look the same
I don't know how you faked this for so long
I can't even fake a smile
You ran away to some girl with blue eyes
I wonder now if she knows your lies
I never once ran away from home
Only back here when things got hard
I sometimes miss that camo-covered man
The hometown hero who still loves me anyways
How can he see right through me
Yet embrace me and all my holes
That I've fallen into, every damn day
My mom keeps promising it'll be okay
I hope you feel guilty for everything you did
I think you might have broke my heart
Not in the metaphorical sort of manner
But the kind you just can't fix
A boy asked me out today
Since when did text messages become the way
What happened to the gentlemen
The flowers, and picking me up in your truck
Someone just open a damn door
Someone just hold my hands
Someone take care of me, just once,
Promise me it'll be okay
I'm sick of lighting candles, spending my nights
With a bottle of wine and Ryan Adams' songs
To ease this pain, erase your memories
But I wake up and it's still just the same
Someone take me out of here
Someone write for me
Someone told me that my songs were too sad
Then someone needs to give me a reason to breathe
My sister tells me what her world has become
And I swear it'll never be that way again
I will never promise a man I'll always stay
They just take advantage that way
No one is ever going to read down this far
And maybe this isn't as well-written as I'd like
But this old cd is on repeat in the background
No amount of ink will drown this out
Someone say you need me
Someone sit on my porch
Someone once promised me forever
And now someone is all gone
I once drove too fast down Graves Road
Late at night, after a few drinks
In my old Ford, to see your face
And make sure that you were okay
I once told my mom I was at my best friends
Just to sleep in your arms
On your mattress, lying on the ground
Of the bedroom loft at your parents house
I wrote you songs. I pet your cat.
I spent days with your sister
Giving her advice on the boys in school
I bought your sister-in-law a Christmas present
I held your hand when you cried
Someone ask him why he lied
Someone tell him you killed her inside
I refuse to let you know I'm weak
But sometimes I still just cry
You won, you won, you broke the girl
Who broke down all her walls to love you
Someone hit him in the face
Someone put your hands around his throat
Someone tell him he ain't that big
Nor is he as cute as I swore he was
I don't know how to end this
Somehow I let you walk away with my all
Even after I brought you all your things
You still kept my clothes
It's just like you to take my things away
It's just like me to give you too much time
So let's somehow make this the end
I'm all alone now and I feel just fine
Someone tell him this is ending
Someone end this with me.