Walk Away

I've gotta say I'm sorry for doing you wrong
You were right all along
Maybe I shouldn't' be here now
Maybe I should walk away now

I can't help but breathe you in
You're like the air, I swear
You've always been there
Maybe I shouldn't be here now
Maybe I should walk away now

But I can't stop, I can't stay
I can't do this, but I can't walk away
I'm so entrapped, I'm breathing rain
You're the one who kept me watching planes
I'm screaming country songs
And I know what Momma would say
But I swear I swear I swear I can't walk away

I didn't forget what those looks mean
I swear you can read me
Maybe I shouldn't be here now
Maybe I should walk away now

I can't help but give you everything I have
Its only natural to breathe
And as you can see, I'm losing me
Maybe I shouldn't be here now
Maybe I should look away now

But I can't stop, I can't stay
I can't do this, but I can't walk away
I'm so entrapped, I'm breathing rain
You're the one who kept me watching planes
I'm screaming country songs
And I know what Daddy would say
But I swear I swear I swear I can't walk away

Prove Me Wrong

Like a wave crash
It keeps coming back
The undertow is nothing I've ever seen before

And will I break my knees
Trying to crawl free?
I just want to be someone's only one

And I swear she was right when she said, "Girl, you'll never be the same again,"
And I swear to God I was right when I said I'd never fall again
And I'm praying please
I'm praying please
Prove me wrong.

My begging eyes
My stubborn pride
Nothing is winning but I'm losing now

I'm running away
But begging you to stay
Won't you please just chase me down?'

And I swear to God mom was right when she said I need to quit giving more
And I swear to God I was right when I said I would walk right out your door
And I'm praying please
I'm praying please
Prove me wrong.

Skinned Knees

I never meant to drag you down with me
I never meant to paint you in my past
But I can't help but hold on to all these damn bruises
I can't help but keep these faded pictures in my head

I can't even damn learn how to heal
So how can I be mad at old letters?
She may of loved you, you may have not
But it's okay, I've forgot
How to forget all they ever did
Which wasn't much but leave me in tears

I should of told you a long time ago
But we both swore to keep the past the past
And here I am digging up yours
Looking for an excuse
To stop loving you and shoot myself out of here

You tell me to stop worrying
I tell you it's all your damn fault
But it isn't you and it's all me and I can't help but not breathe
At the thought this really is all my fault
I suppose this really is my fault

He's still swinging in my head
Causing the mess I'm asking you to clean up
Don't take it all too personally
I'm only losing me and it ain't got a damn thing to do with you
I'm lost in everything I thought I knew

I want to just learn to love
Without begging for your help
I want to want you, not need you so bad
I suppose I've learned from my skinned knees
That people like to push on me
And I suppose you would do the same

Guess I'm the only one here to blame
Yes, I'm the only one who's here to blame

Keep on Waiting

You've got everything you've ever wanted
Sitting in one beat-up old red Ford
You're too busy looking in that rear view mirror
To realize you've got all you're lookin' for.

I'm watching all this gravel settle down on me
On the front porch of the place you call home
Waitin' on the man I used to brag about
To be here but to leave me all alone

You used to swear you were the lucky one
I could tell in the way your blue eyes shined
But now I feel like I'm always looking behind me
Waiting for that girl to cross your mind

She was a fast thing, a one time fling
Turned forever in your mind
I'm here now, but there's no tellin' how
Long I'm gonna keep waiting
She was a heartbreak, a big mistake
You can't stop talking about
I'm here now, but there's no tellin' how
Long I'm gonna keep on waiting
How long are you gonna leave me hanging?

You're sending me down old highway 29
Singing songs that you used to sing to me
Now I feel like there's nothing down this highway
But the remains of your broken memories

I know now, if I walked away you may chase me
You may swear you were wrong all this time
But if this all you have ever wanted
Why is it only on your drunken time?

I feel your past's shadow overhead now
Falling on your yard--it's about to pour
The dogs are barkin', and you're just talkin'
About someone who's not around anymore.

She was a fast thing, a one time fling
Turned forever in your mind
I'm here now, but there's no tellin' how
Long I'm gonna keep waiting
She was a heartbreak, a big mistake
You can't stop talking about
I'm here now, but there's no tellin' how
Long I'm gonna keep on waiting
How long are you gonna leave me hanging?

Lie my back against the grass
Life always moves too fast
Let's slow it down
Bring it all down

I can feel the sun pressing heat
Slide my flip flops off my feet
Let's slow it down
Bring it all down

I have never tasted skin
As sweet as the one you're in
I've never felt fingertips
Pressed on my thighs like this
You're too busy breakin' me down
To notice you're the only one around
I swear it's true
My head's only wrapped in you

Wind runs up your spine
While you're grasping mine
Let's slow it down
Bring it all down

Lips were built just for this
I'm lost in every kiss
Let's slow it down
Bring it all down

You swear you won't hurt me
I swear you're taking me
You swear this is all of you
I'm looking deep into your blue
You're too busy breakin' me down
To notice you're the only one around
I swear it's true
My head's wrapped up in you

I wake up, hands clutching grass
You're gone, this dream has past
It's gone too fast
Ended all too fast

Sit up, pretend I'll never need
Your body laying next to me
It's gone too fast
It ends all too fast.

Heart beat

Lay here in this thick grass
Breathe it into you and me
Let us bake in this moonlight
Lay my head upon your chest

Listen to your heart beat
Listen to your heart beat
I want it to be mine, because you have all mine
Listen to your heart beat
Listen to your heart beat
It's my song I'm always singin' in the back of my head

You count my toes--kiss my head
Brush the hair out of my eyes
I love the way you touch my skin
You lay your hands down my sides

Listen to your heart beat
Listen to your heart beat
I want it to be mine, because you have all mine
Listen to your heart beat
Listen to your heart beat
It's my song I'm always singin' in my car on my way home

I know you can see past my eyes
Asking me what I'm looking for
I don't know what it is
But I swear it is all in you

Listen to your heart beat
Listen to your heart beat
I want it to be mine, because you have all mine
Listen to your heart beat
Listen to your heart beat
It's the song I'm always singin' driving with the windows down

Untold

They don't make movies about people like us
I don't even understand how you do this to me
Sweep the hair out my face, sweep me off my feet
In the grass, in the moonlight, everything falls back
Asking me, what are you looking for?
I don't know, but I've found it in you
Lay here, lay here, I don't want to leave
Between your arms everything falls back

Shortcuts

Perhaps I need
To learn to let go
This fevered collection
Just only proves
I have holes
And cuts unfold
I can't breathe
This past suffocates me
I need to let these lines run free
I need to open phrases
I need to see in me
I have a strength, I have a peace
I have a heart inside me
Let it beat.

Too Much

It broke me down
The heavy stream
Of words, of verbs
Of what I did
It's holding me back
Holding my heart
I should of knew from the start

I loved too much
I gave too much
I trusted all your love
I could see
I was losing me
I should of known

I'm lost in layered lip gloss
In mascara and ripped jeans
I can't find anything I meant to say
I can't find what anything means
He sweeps hair out of my eyes
He breaks tears with fingertips
I can only pretend I am stronger than my tears
I can only pretend what this is
I wish I knew who you are talking to
Where you are and who you're with
Your car's parked outside my neighborhood
It's not really yours, but I pretend it is
I wish you missed me
I wish I didn't have to say goodbye
It's not fair as he kisses me
It's not fair he'll never be mine
Why do you have to give me these blues?
Why can't I just dream in bed?
Why is this life so damn ruined?
What is he doing in my head?

Kiss me please
I just want to forget it all
Make me believe
This past doesn't matter at all


I try to forget his red car
The rain and the docks
I try to forget the piles of letters
Laying heavy in me like rocks
I try to forget your planes and the way
You'd always make me smile
It isn't fair I can only pretend
And feel okay for a little while
Why did he touch the gun?
Why'd he have to go blue?
Why can't my father smile for a while?
Why did you make me leave you?
I am so broken--so empty
I don't know how to cry
I feel like I am breaking this man
I feel like I was just left to die

Don't leave me
I don't want to be left alone
Make me believe
This past doesn't matter at all

You read this as a cry for help
Like the pages of a tabloid magazine
You take these lines like a drug overdose
In a bathroom with the walls shown green
Can't I just let this page take these things
These words and memories?
Turn them away, send them out of my heart
Quit replaying all these damned broken scenes

God find me
I don't want to be alone
Make me believe
This past doesn't matter at all

I just want to pretend he's still alive
I want to believe you're still mine
I want to think he didn't mean to hurt me
I just pretend he actually liked me
I thought his words were like candy
Poisoned, but I couldn't see
Shining, pretty, tasting so damn good
But God--he poisoned me

Make me believe
I'm something more than all of this
Make me believe
This past doesn't matter at all
This past doesn't matter at all
This past does matter after all

Mute

Sun shines upon a blank face
You smile but you can't say
A damn thing
You have nothing

Your pretty lips stay sticky slick
Covered in peach-cherry-chocolate lipstick
You're pretty
Just so damn pretty

And they just want to know your name
And they just want you to scream their name

C'mon, baby, here's my car
Don't speak, don't put your seatbelt on
We'll just stay in this backseat
Where you won't need to speak
A damn thing
You're so damn pretty

Fake eyelashes flash pretty quick
You sure can drive a stick
Keep your shoes on, we're not far
I promise, baby, I'm a star
You're pretty
Just don't speak to me.

Broken.

Version One:

The Georgia weather
Leaves me confused
Stuck between
These seasons, these hues
A flash of yellow
Becomes overcome in gray
Flowers wilt
Midst a rainy day

You sent your words
Over an empty line
I tell the truth
You won't apologize
Another flower falls
On my linoleum floor
You can't let live
Something that never has before

A broken smile
A toss of hair
Under my breath,
"You're never there"
The beads I let
Lay between my hands
Only cut me down
With foggy plans

And I never thought I'd say no,
But God, I ran, and you pushed me off.

I wrote about bridges
I wrote about you
I wrote about planes
And chasing you
But I can't chase
Someone who isn't there
There is only this pen,
This desk, this broken chair.

I have some pictures
I have this place
I have some people
To brush the hair out my face
I have a pen
Some lyrics too
I have enough
To help me get over you

I thought these words
Would bring me tears
But I have my strengths
I have my beers
A broken glass
Still keeps some light
It reflects back
It spirals out in plain sight

Version Two:

These Georgian clouds
Leave me confused
Stuck slow between
These grays, these blues
A broken rain
Falls through soft green
The seasons turn
But are leaving me

You spoke your words
Over an empty line
I won't let go
You won't apologize
Another petal falls
Upon my linoleum floor
You can't let live
Something that hasn't before

A broken smile
A toss of hair
Under my breath,
"He doesn't care,"
I held between my palms
Your rosen beads
They cut into the bone
You let me bleed

And horses always must run free
You let wild horses drag you away

I wrote about bridges
I wrote about truth
I wrote about planes
And chasing you
But I can't chase
Someone who isn't there
There is only this pen
This desk, this broken chair

I have some pictures
I have this place
I have some people
To brush the hair out my face
I have a pen
Some lyrics too
I have enough
To help me get over you

I thought these words
Would bring me to tears
Like rain falling down
It'll always clear
A broken glass
Still keeps some light
It reflects back
It spirals out in plain sight

Version Three:

These Georgian clouds
Left me confused
Stuck slow between
These grays, these blues
A broken rain
Falls through soft green
The season turned
But is leaving me

You lay your words
On an empty line
I can't let go
You can't apolgize
Another fallen petal
Hits my floor
You can't let live
What hasn't before

A broken smile
A toss of hair
Under my breath,
"He didn't care,"
Between my palms
Lay rosen beads
The beads you let
Cut into me

And horses always must run free
You let wild horses drag you from me

I wrote down bridges
I wrote down flames
I wrote down chases
I wrote down planes
But I can't chase
Who isn't there
There's just ink
A desk, a broken chair

I have some pictures
I have this place
I have some people
Brushing hair from my face
I have this pen
Some lyrics, too.
I have enough
To get myself over you.

I thought these words
Would bring out tears
Like broken rain
It'll always clear
A broken glass
Still keeps some light
It reflects back
Upwards in torn sight.