Sometimes

We're the last hope and fate
For our family to take
We're the last open saving grace
When we posses a flaw
We leave our family at a door
That they're begging us to open
Yes, we try to save
The last word, our last name
Yes, we take all that they can't feel
We get up every day
We take pills, drink the pain
Trying to make it worth the wait

These four years have been the longest
I pray sometimes for God to let it end
When the guilt sets in and there's no way I can win
I take my pain a drop at a time
Oh, yes, sometimes, we're living for all around us

We're the wine, we're the meal
The laat bread for us to deal
The last word in a family tradition
We're a break, we're a bend
We're doing all we can mend
The way time had tolled on our past
Sometimes I will beg
That God will just break these legs
Let me free, for once, for all
Then I think of my fate
Only for my family's sake
Then I choose to take it all

These four years have been the longest
I pray sometimes for God to let it end
When the guilt sets in and there's no way I can win
I take my pain a drop at a time
Oh, yes, sometimes, we're living for all around us

And never has anyone passed the roads we've traveled
And yes, never has anyone tried to force open these doors
And yes, no one has ever told someone they could do it before
God, I pray I can do for them all
Yes, I pray for my family, I can do it all

We're the last dying fate
For our family to take
Yes, I pray I can do it all

These four years have been the longest
I pray sometimes for God to let it end
When the guilt sets in and there's no way I can win
I take my pain a drop at a time
Oh, yes, sometimes, we're living for all around us

Take Me Home

Do you know when I look in your eyes I go speechless?
I may write a lot, but I can't ever speak.
When I see you a million thing come flooding in my throat
Then my tongue won't work, every facility gets weak

If I could I'd tell you all my daydreams
The nights I lie awake to watch you sleep
Something about the way you touch me
Something in the secrets your eyes keep

The stupid things I do are just to watch you smile
And because I don't know ever what to say
We lie there in the dark, holding the silence
I'm praying time to stop and you to stay

I count months, days, to hours, just to be with you
I'll wait months, days, years to see your face
When you're gone I can't be whole until you're here again
When you're away I feel you in this lonely place

So make it stop, slow it down, make you stay
Even if this moment's all we'll ever have alone
No matter where I am, where you are, what you do
You're the only one who makes me feel home
Yes, you're the only one who can take me home.

Counting Down Days

Counting down days
Until I see you again
Counting down days
Proves time is moving
It mocks and it bends
But you'll call me again
Just to say, baby, I'm counting down days

I broke down walls
Just to let you in
I fought it off
And now you're off fighting
I fell in love
With more than camo and sands
You'll hold me in
With each letter I'm writing

And how do you say goodbye to a man who may not come home again?
Baby, you're the only home I've ever wanted to be in
Baby, please come home again
This long distance is killing me

Counting down days
Until I see you again
Counting down days
Proves time is moving
It mocks and it bends
But you'll call me again
Just to say, baby, I'm counting down days

A Song About While They're Gone

Baby girl can't help but to bare her soul
It's the only way to love she's ever known
And how to be loved

She's breaks this ride, takes this train
Rides the bus ride home
Even then in this hood she can feel his cold
He won't be coming home

Not tonight, not tomorrow
Not for three-six-five
She'll sit and wait, write the letters
Stare at stars on long midnight late drives
When will you be home?

And they don't write songs
About while they're gone
No songs about when they leave

I don't want to hear them say
He's not coming back--not coming home
He's gone away
I don't want to hear those songs
I don't want to hear them say
He's not at home, and I'm all alone
For the rest of these days
He's gone away

It's late and she's last to her bed tonight
The heart is warm and it's there
Bleeding into laptop lights
She's bleeding into the page

She writes the letters, sends the songs
Takes the pictures of home
Tries to remind him and her of the only love they've known
To travel into sand

And they don't write songs
About while they're gone
No songs about when they leave

I don't want to hear them say
He's not coming back--not coming home
He's gone away
I don't want to hear those songs
I don't want to hear them say
He's not at home, and I'm all alone
For the rest of these days
He's gone away

Meant to Be

It has nothing to do with the night we met
Because bar lights, they can be so deceiving
But when I became the princess in distress
You changed my tire and changed my feelings

Suddenly I belonged in your passenger
And suddently I belonged with you
In the moment you asked, "Can I come any closer?"
Is the moment in the dark that I knew
Yeah, I knew

I knew getting lost with you was better than safe anywhere else
I knew a slow dance and holding hands for no reason
I knew bar fights and dim lights and your truck late at night
Listening to Sammy Kershaw sing we were meant to be
Yeah, I knew we were meant to be

And on the weekend you'll drive hundreds of miles
Just so I can see you and not feel so alone
I'm always begging you to stay, you're always running late
But we both know this is better than the phone

When I wake in the night and you're holding me tight
I swear I can't stop staring at you
The way that you breathe, I want to remember everything
And in the dark I swear I knew
Yeah, I knew

I knew that a flat tire and some keys brought you to me
I knew dancing to Garth Brooks in my basement
I knew play fights and slow nights with movies and dim lights
Listening to Sammy Kershaw sing we were meant to be
Yeah, I knew we were meant to be

Kindred Spirits

I'm almost 21, and I call shotgun
We make the boys pile in the backseat
They buy the beer, but we have no fear
We'll find that keg and we'll raise up our feet
The sun's too hot, but the pool is cold
I swear I never want this summer to end
We're floating still, on an air mattress filled
We swear we were always meant to be best friends

We'll sing country songs
Til our alarms go off
I guess I'm sleeping through class today
As long as my bottle is full
And the cigarettes are near
It isn't a waste of a day
Let's say we're 21
Let's fight the sun
We're too young to be responsible
Let's get fucked up for as long as it takes
I don't want to stop 'til we graduate

Your 441

I turn the key
In the one thing
That'll push as hard as I want and won't hurt me
I heard her voice
After that dialtone
And I'm breathin' fire hotter than you've ever known

The light is red
But it ain't stoppin' me
My head was going as soon as I grabbed my key

441 ain't no road for stoppin'
But I'm about to make a scene
As soon as you hear your door unlockin'
I'm coming out swinging
I don't care if she ain't here
You best believe I ain't leavin'
My car is shooting off like a gun
To your unfaithful 441

His Front Porch

It's taking the rain real slow
To wash away all the things I didn't want to know
I prayed into a bottle again
Broken like the pieces you left until the end
I wake to reach for your taste
But nothing ever seems to let me let go
No...

I cried into dreams too many times
I swear I won't give you my all
I won't let you have what isn't left of me
My eyes won't let you see it at all
I cannot be fallen
I'll always be the girl on your front porch

The nights and lines are one
Blurring down the road reaching for the sun
I threw my heart away
Ain't much left of it since you left anyways

I cried into dreams too many times
I swear I won't give you my all
I won't let you see what isn't left of me
My eyes won't let you see in at all
I cannot be fallen
I'll always be the girl on his front porch

And please, light the match
Bring me your lighter, bring me back

I cried into dreams too many times
I swear I won't give you my all
I won't let you have what isn't left of me
My eyes won't let you in at all
I cannot be fallen
I'll always be the girl on his front porch

Cracks in the Ceiling

Watching the cracks in the ceiling
I swear they're coming down on me
That ceiling fan's wobblin' and weavin'
And I'm trying to remember how to breathe

I feel like I ought to be praying
Apologizing to God on my knees
No, I can't sleep and you're making weak
Watching the cracks in the ceiling

I'm a sinner, I swear, it's me
I wish I could run from it all
But the past will always bury me
And I can't recover from the fall

So here, right now, hear me
I'm sorry, I'm begging
Just give me one damn chance

I want to be something more than the woman
Who lost herself in three years flat
I'm buried, not beaten, and I'm gonna keep digging
Myself out of the grave I've made

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I am

So leave me here, waiting and watching
I need to get out of the way
The cracks in the ceiling, they're coming for me
I can't remember if I'm breathing

The cracks in the ceiling, they're coming for me
And I can't remember if I'm breathing
But I know, I know, I'm kneeling.

Walk Away

I've gotta say I'm sorry for doing you wrong
You were right all along
Maybe I shouldn't' be here now
Maybe I should walk away now

I can't help but breathe you in
You're like the air, I swear
You've always been there
Maybe I shouldn't be here now
Maybe I should walk away now

But I can't stop, I can't stay
I can't do this, but I can't walk away
I'm so entrapped, I'm breathing rain
You're the one who kept me watching planes
I'm screaming country songs
And I know what Momma would say
But I swear I swear I swear I can't walk away

I didn't forget what those looks mean
I swear you can read me
Maybe I shouldn't be here now
Maybe I should walk away now

I can't help but give you everything I have
Its only natural to breathe
And as you can see, I'm losing me
Maybe I shouldn't be here now
Maybe I should look away now

But I can't stop, I can't stay
I can't do this, but I can't walk away
I'm so entrapped, I'm breathing rain
You're the one who kept me watching planes
I'm screaming country songs
And I know what Daddy would say
But I swear I swear I swear I can't walk away

Prove Me Wrong

Like a wave crash
It keeps coming back
The undertow is nothing I've ever seen before

And will I break my knees
Trying to crawl free?
I just want to be someone's only one

And I swear she was right when she said, "Girl, you'll never be the same again,"
And I swear to God I was right when I said I'd never fall again
And I'm praying please
I'm praying please
Prove me wrong.

My begging eyes
My stubborn pride
Nothing is winning but I'm losing now

I'm running away
But begging you to stay
Won't you please just chase me down?'

And I swear to God mom was right when she said I need to quit giving more
And I swear to God I was right when I said I would walk right out your door
And I'm praying please
I'm praying please
Prove me wrong.

Skinned Knees

I never meant to drag you down with me
I never meant to paint you in my past
But I can't help but hold on to all these damn bruises
I can't help but keep these faded pictures in my head

I can't even damn learn how to heal
So how can I be mad at old letters?
She may of loved you, you may have not
But it's okay, I've forgot
How to forget all they ever did
Which wasn't much but leave me in tears

I should of told you a long time ago
But we both swore to keep the past the past
And here I am digging up yours
Looking for an excuse
To stop loving you and shoot myself out of here

You tell me to stop worrying
I tell you it's all your damn fault
But it isn't you and it's all me and I can't help but not breathe
At the thought this really is all my fault
I suppose this really is my fault

He's still swinging in my head
Causing the mess I'm asking you to clean up
Don't take it all too personally
I'm only losing me and it ain't got a damn thing to do with you
I'm lost in everything I thought I knew

I want to just learn to love
Without begging for your help
I want to want you, not need you so bad
I suppose I've learned from my skinned knees
That people like to push on me
And I suppose you would do the same

Guess I'm the only one here to blame
Yes, I'm the only one who's here to blame