You stay.

You're taking me slow
Through the turns.
You're playing with my fire
Without leaving me with burns.
I say I can't sleep
So you stay.
You're the beads between my palms
Pressed together as I pray.

I thought you'd never follow,
But through these thorns and fire
You're walking right beside me
Holding my hand--You stay, you stay.

I broke promises,
That may be,
But your picture stand still
On my nightstand as I sleep.
I may run
Like horses free,
But you're my stable; you're my home,
The place I need to be.

I thought you'd drown in my tears,
But you're pulling me onshore.
I'm waves upon your beach.
Loving me--You stay, you stay.

You're everything I'll ever need.

listen.

It's not like you weren't there
Pounding on my guilt
You sang me slow old songs
I hold on--you're my rock

I keep asking, staying angry
But I can't say these words to you
How dare I question your judgement?
You're who I came from

But why can't you sacrifice?
Why can't you share?
Why am I so alone?
Why can't you understand?

You've never seen me
You've never ever listened
I'm blinded by your light
Why are you the only one right?

I keep telling myself to suck it up
You've left me so alone
I guess I'm old enough
To let you go, but I still listen.

Let yourself go.

You never know really what you want
So you want it all
You talk until everyone has heard it all
How's it like falling?

You just want to get high tonight
You won't let yourself go tonight

Is it your fault you're so alone?
I can't decide which side to take
You never want to stay when you're not alone
You're stuck in this last past

You just let me go alone tonight
Why won't you just wake up tonight?

It's not the same, I'm torn two ways
You're waking up next to me
Is this everything you've wanted--
A life filled with nothing important?

Now you shut more doors and close
Those eyes behind you
We're staring at something we can't see
Show who you're meant to be

You just need to wake up tonight
Let yourself go out tonight

grammar.

It's a sudden shock
Clear blue
Pure
A deep sign
It holds me
Close
Closer
I fall around us
More than page breaks
Punctuation
And pure ink
More than verbs
Nouns, clauses
I close off

blunt.

it's undermining every breath i take
it's the light in my eyes as i wake
this car crash of a heart
it won't even start
pushing back the shower curtain
it's sitting there, it's pulling open
i pretend not to see
what you're telling me

and i am running farther than i should from you
and i am praying in every moment i'm missing you
i'm missing you

i'll pretend
and i'll wait
for you to really hit my face
and i'll
i'll forget to see
how everything is a memory

bring me back
those couches and the wine
the classes and our time
his wrinkled nose
and your house you chose
bring me back
your smile and your breath
i can't handle death
i though you knew

you took with you everything
we can't even breath
you're haunting me

bring me back
the projects and the green
the movies and my dream
the turntable
and peeled beer lables
bring me back
your smile and your breath
i can't handle death
i thought you knew
i thought you knew

well now you know
now you know
i'm missing you
i'm missing you
i am running farther than i should from you
i am praying in every moment i'm missing you
i'm missing you

mirror

turn around and let's realize
you're the only one to make me stay
i've been running everywhere
but the right way
and you're the only one to really love me at all
reflecting back onto that orange lake of ours
and looking through steamed windows
you're the only one to really love me at all

so look right into my eyes
you're standing there
i'm everything you have made me be
it's something i can't explain
it's so different now
those words seem so plain to me
but nothing could be more true
you've made me believe

i've broken every step to get here
i've taken every bridge back
but now i'd burn them all down for you
there were too many memories before
but now everything is so brand new
you're the only one to really love me at all

so look right into my eyes
you're standing there
i'm everything i've wanted for you
it's something i can't explain
it's so different now
those words seems so plain to me
but nothing could be more true
you've made me believe

and i see those prayers in your eyes
these aren't lies
and they aren't lines that just sound good
i'm on my knees
praying please
don't let this past become the only truth

so look right into my eyes
you're standing there
i'm everything you will ever need
it's something i can't explain
it's so different now
those words seem so plain to me
but nothing could be more true
you've made me believe