We're Left Waiting

In a dark black night
It’s cold, so I press against your chest
And bury my nose
Into a jacket soaked in gray city sweat

And we
Belong
In such a place much farther than here
But in
This street
Those grassy worlds can’t be near
And so
We wait
On time, on love, on distant dreams
And so
We’re left waiting

This college beer town
Stains our eyes in painted red lights
We’re holding hands
To fight the crowds of all lost fights

You break us through
The smell of cigarettes bites my face
We jaywalk the street
Each step a drunk-set cold-rushed pace

And we
Belong
In such a place much farther than here
But in
This street
Those grassy worlds can’t be near
And so
We wait
On time, on love, on distant dreams
And so
We’re left waiting

And the cabs won’t stop and the cars all rear
Back on us, honking in our ears
You wait on me, I clutch your hand
And now my dress is held in your wool again
I know there’s more, atleast you’re near
And we’re just left waiting here
And we’ll just wait here.

And we
Belong
In such a place much farther than here
But in
This street
Those grassy worlds can’t be near
And so
We wait
On time, on love, on distant dreams
And so
We’re left waiting

Still

It's been two years
And things ain't been the same
I cry your name
In the dark, to stars, late at night
And now it's cold
I guess the leaves still fall the same
But I still miss your face

When you'd laugh
I'd laugh too
I'd follow you
To any dark shadester stoner home
And in the smoke
We brought past to their knees
Now these memories
Can't help but bring me down

It's been two years
And things ain't been the same
I cry your name
In the dark, to stars, late at night
And now it's cold
I guess the leaves still fall the same
But I still miss your face

In that dorm bed
We were only friends
We never held our hands
To the bonds they expected from us
And still I ask
Could you have held in more?
But now these closing doors
Only show me glimpses of what could of been

It's been two years
And things ain't been the same
I cry your name
In the dark, to stars, late at night
And now it's cold
I guess the leaves still fall the same
But I still miss your face

Keep On Waiting [Rewrite #1]

You've got everything you've ever wanted, sitting in one beat-up old red Ford
You're too busy looking in that rear view, to realize you've got all you're lookin' for.
I'm watching all this gravel settle on me, on the front porch of what you call home
Waitin' on the man I once bragged about, to be here but to leave me all alone

You used to swear you were the lucky one, I could tell in the way your blue eyes shined
Now I feel I'm always looking behind me, waiting for that girl to cross your mind

She was a fast thing, a one time fling
Turned forever in your mind
I'm here now, but there's no tellin' how
Long I'm gonna keep waiting
She was a heartbreak, a big mistake
You can't stop talking about
I'm here now, but there's no tellin' how
Long I'm gonna keep on waiting
How long are you gonna leave me hanging?

You're sending me down old 29, singing songs that you used to sing to me
Now I feel like there's nothing on this road, but the remains of your broken memories
I know now, if I walked away you may chase me, you may swear to walk the line
But if this all you have ever wanted, why is it only on your drunken time?

I feel your past's shadow overhead now, falling on your yard--it's about to pour
The dogs are barkin', and you're just talkin', about someone who's not around anymore.

She was a fast thing, a one time fling
Turned forever in your mind
I'm here now, but there's no tellin' how
Long I'm gonna keep waiting
She was a heartbreak, a big mistake
You can't stop talking about
I'm here now, but there's no tellin' how
Long I'm gonna keep on waiting
How long are you gonna leave me hanging?

Bring Me to You.

Wrapped up in just a tee
Laughing at you laughing at me
Standing in the doorway to my bed
Pictures hangin' on the walls
But I'm hanging on your words
The smile's the hook, line and sink on a look
I guess these are broke down walls
And maybe the light held you just right
And maybe it's the falling words you said

I lied
On crumpled sheets, on empty lines,
In your heat
I found
Something I knew
And now I can't breathe in your moment with me
And now I'm loving what you do
You bring me to you

Perhaps when we look back
We'll appreaciate this past
Standing in the doorway to my bed
I couldn't stop that smile
I couldn't hold you in
Your hands were the line, I sang through the passing of time
I guess you were the song stuck in my head
And maybe we loved a little too loose
And maybe these lyrics can say it right.

I lied
On crumpled sheets, on empty lines,
In your heat
I found
Something I knew
And now I can't breathe in your moment with me
And now I'm loving what you do
You bring me to you

These Waves.

I haven't felt this sun before
Who knew you held it in your arms?
This relief, this post-breaking point
Brings me singing ot my knees

A sense of glow warms my skin
Just like I'm laying on your beach
I'm lying in your sands, your hands, your pull
This could be a perfect memory

These waves
I kept floating in between
Now I'm high on salty foam
Now I'm breaking in the reach
Of these waves
And I finally found my peak
Please don't let this perfect power
Come crashing down on me
These waves

This moment reflects in your light
As if I'm underneath the sea
A billion sparkling dips and dives brought me here
Brought me to fresh air, untangled from the reef

These waves
I kept floating in between
Now I'm high on salty foam
Now I'm breaking in the reach
Of these waves
And I finally found my peak
Please don't let this perfect power
Come crashing down on me
These waves

Lights, clear
His eyes are begging for answers
They question, they ask
They beg for anything
For a something that I don't know
I look away
I can't keep my gaze
His eyes--they flash
Into my very empty soul
I can't even answer my own eyes

They keep looking within me
But I'm so nervous
I shake in the stares
I stutter int he silence
Beg me, beg me, beg me again
I have no answers for empty prayers

He listens
My hands crease the lines and my sweat smears the ink and I can't think
Only read as blank as the paper
A break--another--
My breaths--they stagger--
I take--each word--
It's isolated--alone.

I took this whole piece and I lost its peace
I broke it into pieces
It'll never be whole

If only I knew how to answer
His eyes
If only I knew how to answer
His eyes
If only he'd give me his answers instead of his questions and if only I could let go of my own two feet
I don't know how to speak--or stand.

Now I'm shaking hands, praying in pats
On the back for "good job," "well said," and "well spoken"
I did not give you answers and I did not give you questions
I just saw his eyes

Our Song.

You're wonderin' if you belong
And I feel like I'm fighting your past
You don't want us to be another sad song
But baby, I feel we're burnin' like a match
You broke down these words
My lines have all dried
Now you're wonderin' if you should say goodbye

Maybe this isn't like the movies
Maybe we won't find our happy end
But you sing all the slow songs, in the dark, when I feel wrong'd
That let me know nothing's too bad
Can't you just sing it again?

You know there's nothing as cold
As an empty pen, bed, and a bottle of Jack
You and I, we've only had songs to hold
when we're lying down what all we can't take back
You're lost in a dark laugh
I'm smilin' under covers
Why are we so lost in old lovers?

Maybe this isn't like the movies
Maybe we won't find our happy end
But you sing all the slow songs, in the dark, when I feel wrong'd
That let me know nothing's too bad
Can't you just sing it again?

And so what if our song brings us to our knees?
So what if all these old lines don't have everything we need?
We're moving someone, something
I'd rather hurt than not feel anything

Maybe this isn't like the movies
Maybe we won't find our happy end
But you sing all the slow songs, in the dark, when I feel wrong'd
That let me know nothing's too bad
Can't you just sing it again?

Back

I guess I can't write you letters anymore.
I've been praying for months for you to walk through my door
But now time that matters still
Doesn't matter to you

I could try to stand, try to walk out this room
But my bed just keeps screaming you
And why would I want to try again?
You're the only one who knew

And the songs just keep playing
I thought I was meant to be with you

Why can't we go back?
Try to take this all way
The 10 months are all the past
And I don't know what to say
I know I want to make this last
Why can't we go back?

I woke up with those songs in my head
And I woke up without you laying in my bed
But I don't know how to apologize
And now I'm on my knees

Too bad for pride, I thought it was so true
And now I'm sitting alone, thinking about you
Replacin' ain't an option
And now I'm on my knees

You broke me down so bad
You gave me what I need

Why can't we go back?
Try to take this all way
The 10 months are all the past
And I don't know what to say
I know I want to make this last
Why can't we go back?

Can't you just say for love's sake this wasn't a mistake?
Why can't you hold my hand, take all this away?
Why can't you just please forgive me?

Why can't we go back?
Try to take this all way
The 10 months are all the past
And I don't know what to say
I know I want to make this last
Why can't we go back?

Goodbye

It's not even like we said goodbye.
It was a "see you later," kiss on the cheek, airplanes flying by
It's not like we had a fight
A move your things, pack your bags, get out of my sight.
It's a far away, long time, maybe someday, goodbye.

I wrote some words down for you.
I broke pain into tears, just hoping for your voice
I guess I'll never get to hear
The "I don't love you," maybe some closure, could make things clear.
It's a far away, long time, maybe someday, goodbye.

I don't know what anything means without your name
Engraved, on my brain, every day
I don't know how to move on or move forward or what we are
When you're so damn far away
This long distance, it's insisting, that I missed it
And I miss you, but I had to, say goodbye.
Yeah, goodbye.

I could sit on here all day
Laptop buzzing, phone just charging, hearing nothing anyways
I could keep trying to call
But it don't even ring and machine just sings, "No one's here at all,"

I could go to your mother's
But who wants to say, I don't know why, I'm so sorry, one more time?
I could go to my mom's
But she keeps asking, why'd you do it, where is he, and why say goodbye?
It's a far away, long time, maybe someday, goodbye.

I don't know what anything means without your name
Engraved, on my brain, every day
I don't know how to move on or move forward or what we are
When you're so damn far away
This long distance, it's insisting, that I missed it
And I miss you, but I had to, say goodbye.
Yeah, goodbye.

And maybe if I scream your name
And maybe if these tears come down one more time
You might actually say, you need me, you miss me
And you're coming home
To stay.

I don't know what anything means without your name
Engraved, on my brain, every day
I don't know how to move on or move forward or what we are
When you're so damn far away
This long distance, it's insisting, that I missed it
And I miss you, but I had to, say goodbye.
Yeah, goodbye.

I don't know what anything means without your name
Engraved, on my brain, every day
I don't know how to move on or move forward or what we are
When you're so damn far away
This long distance, it's insisting, that I missed it
And I miss you, but I had to, say goodbye.
Yeah, goodbye.

It's moving.

Electric lines bring you to me
So close, you're here now
And when lines fade, you don't fade away
Unbelievable, I don't know how
So I love you through the ink I send
I send the letters down into sand
A hole can't be filled, the sand is sinking now
And tonight I feel your hands

So tell the sand my broken heart
Tell the sand to send you home
I'm sick of hearing out my lonely heart
At least time is moving
At least time is moving
It's moving, days pass away

It's home, it's here, that you need to feel
It's home, where you need to be
It's home, and I need you here tonight
It's home when you're what I'm feeling
I need your hat, I need your words
I need your voice to touch me
I can't believe what I'm feeling now
It's almost like you never left here
So I fake the smile day to day
I keep myself busy
To count and pass the days away
Until you won't have to miss me
Counting, it gets old with time
But at least I know time's moving
And dirt roads pass the pain away
To a time when I wasn't lonely

So tell the sand my broken heart
Tell the sand to send you home
I'm sick of hearing out my lonely heart
At least time is moving
At least time is moving
It's moving, days pass away

It's so close to the holidays
And I wish I could let it be
Hide in my home, hide from it all
Until missing becomes knowing
I break myself down into lines
Into bottles with no ending
I pray for you to see a day
When missing becomes knowing
Counting, it gets old with time
But at least I know time's moving
And faded photographs pass the pain away
To a time when I wasn't lonely

So tell the sand my broken heart
Tell the sand to send you home
I'm sick of hearing out my lonely heart
At least time is moving
It's moving, days, they pass away

Can't Stop

Sittin' in your truck
Back behind the bar
You're about sideways
As you ever were
Parking lot lights
Send a glow over us
As I force-feed you Quik-stop
I fall back in love

It's strange how some nothing becomes somethin' every time with you
You might be drunk off your ass, but you're still able to slur out, "I love you,"
still here in this parking lot it feels like a candlelit dinner for two
You never know how I can't stop fallin' for you

You sit in your chair
With a beer in your hand
Next to the remote
Lies a Copen-can
You're not watchin' me watch
You watchin' football
As you prop your feet up
I can't help but fall

It's strange how some nothing becomes somethin' everytime with you
You might be too busy yelling "Go Dawgs," to hear me say that I love you
Still, with a mouth full of dip, I'm lovin' every damn thing you do
You never know how I can't stop fallin' for you

A Hell in Love

Into the course
He never knew
It would be so rough
Broken down
Into pews
Into twisted love
Set it straight
Make a name
Make it up
You're here to fill
What's half full
Of an empty cup

Turn me down
Turn me out
And it turns you on
Make your name
Make the game
And it makes this hard
Play your cue
Play your turn
Learn to play your card
To hell with it
To hell with all
It's a hell in love

More to say
In your eyes
But you keep them shut
More to do
In your hands
Callused and so rough
Make your name
Make your name
Make it up
Take your time
You're all mine
It's a hell in love

Turn me down
Turn me out
And it turns you on
Make your name
Make the game
And it makes this hard
Play your cue
Play your turn
Learn to play your card
To hell with it
To hell with all
It's a hell in love

Come Back

Broken rains
I'm coming loose
I'm running far
I want to run to you

But you're not here
Goddamn that sand
It's pouring slow
Between my hands

And there you go sliding through my fingertips
And there you go taking me into some past

Come back soon
Come home now
You're fighting for a something for too long now
Come back to me
Come home please
I'm fighting for a something in these Georgian trees

And I swear those pines are screaming your name
And I swear these last cigarettes don't taste the same
Come back soon

This southern spring
This loss of air
I can't breathe
You're not there

Painful rush
Painful tears
I try to drink
The whiskey's here

And there you go pouring through my fingertips
And there you go taking me into some past

Come back soon
Come home now
You're fighting for a something for too long now
Come back to me
Come home please
I'm fighting for a something in these Georgian trees

And I swear those pines are screaming your name
And I swear these last cigarettes don't taste the same
Come back soon

Only Again

You were the mistake I never thought I'd make
As the rain passed by the window slow
You took me in your arms, and held me closer
Than I should ever be allowed to know
Sometimes I think that maybe I don't belong here
Well, where do you belong if it ain't home?
I broke too many times, can't find the pieces
I wrote too many songs to let you know

I ran away
I ran to only find I was alone
Only again
I believe that this is something I shouldn't know
I don't deserve the love I have
I don't deserve the rocks in my throat
I don't deserve to hold his hand and
I don't deserve those reddened notes
Only again

You were the mistake I never thought I'd make
As the rain passed by the window slow
You took me in your arms, and held me closer
Than I should ever be allowed to know
Sometimes I think that maybe I don't belong here
Well, where do you belong if it ain't home?
I broke too many times, can't find the pieces
I wrote too many songs to let you know

You took the pen
And wrote down lyrics to a lost love song
Only again
I didn't know the words that you were singin'
As the drifters drifted past
And their beers became cold
As the hippies hit their last
And the stoners all came slow
Only again

You were the mistake I never thought I'd make
As the rain passed by the window slow
You took me in your arms, and held me closer
Than I should ever be allowed to know
Sometimes I think that maybe I don't belong here
Well, where do you belong if it ain't home?
I broke too many times, can't find the pieces
I wrote too many songs to let you know
Only again, only again...

Who Knows Why

Who knows why
It pours like it does
Into glasses, into bottles
We're all chasing somethin'
Who knows why
You drink like you do
It doesn't heal the pain
It won't help forget you

In the dark
We're lying to ourselves
We're beggin' to bottles
We're makin' the models
Of where we can never be

In the bar
We're lying in the stools
We weave in the tables
We start peelin' labels
Is this all we can be?

Who knows why
It pours like it does
Into glasses, into bottles
We're all chasing somethin'
Who knows why
You drink like you do
It doesn't heal the pain
It won't help forget you

In my head
I'm drowning in the beers
You're grabbin' for hope
We're grabbin' for dope
Let's smoke the memories

In your bed
You're staring at black light
You can't see the past
It all went to fast
Is this all we'll ever be?

Who knows why
It pours like it does
Into glasses, into bottles
We're all chasing somethin'
Who knows why
You drink like you do
It doesn't heal the pain
It won't help forget you

Boys Like Me

I can gossip with the best
And I can put my hair like they please
I can joke and I can tease
I can flirt and I can please
Yet I'd rather drink a beer and watch football

I own things in pink
And I swear a martini's a good drink
I can dance and I can love
I can speak my feelings without being drunk
Yet I'd rather just keep my mouth

That's why I hang out with boys like me
They wear the same holey jeans
I'll wear a camo Georgia hat
And won't give a damn if I look fat
In a white tank and boots with stains faded green
That's why I hang out with boys like me
With names like Dave, Dennis, and Kelly
I'd rather sit a bar
And talk shit about my car
Then be a damn sorority
That's why I hang out with boys like me

I could wear a skirt
But those damn heels hurt
I could lay in a tanning bed
But I swear I'd get all red
I'd rather fish in the sun if you'd please

I could put makeup on
And only sing when to chick songs
But I'd rather blast Hank
With two hands full of cold drank
Than play the pretty girl who smiles politely

That's why I hang out with boys like me
They wear the same holey jeans
I'll wear a camo Georgia hat
And won't give a damn if I look fat
In a white tank and boots with stains faded green
That's why I hang out with boys like me
With names like Dave, Dennis, and Kelly
I'd rather sit a bar
And talk shit about my car
Then be a damn sorority
That's why I hang out with boys like me

You could say I ain't ladylike
When I burp and start picking fights
But I swear that's just all me

That's why I hang out with boys like me
They wear the same holey jeans
I'll wear a camo Georgia hat
And won't give a damn if I look fat
In a white tank and boots with stains faded green
That's why I hang out with boys like me
With names like Dave, Dennis, and Kelly
I'd rather sit a bar
And talk shit about my car
Then be a damn sorority
That's why I hang out with boys like me

Sometimes

We're the last hope and fate
For our family to take
We're the last open saving grace
When we posses a flaw
We leave our family at a door
That they're begging us to open
Yes, we try to save
The last word, our last name
Yes, we take all that they can't feel
We get up every day
We take pills, drink the pain
Trying to make it worth the wait

These four years have been the longest
I pray sometimes for God to let it end
When the guilt sets in and there's no way I can win
I take my pain a drop at a time
Oh, yes, sometimes, we're living for all around us

We're the wine, we're the meal
The laat bread for us to deal
The last word in a family tradition
We're a break, we're a bend
We're doing all we can mend
The way time had tolled on our past
Sometimes I will beg
That God will just break these legs
Let me free, for once, for all
Then I think of my fate
Only for my family's sake
Then I choose to take it all

These four years have been the longest
I pray sometimes for God to let it end
When the guilt sets in and there's no way I can win
I take my pain a drop at a time
Oh, yes, sometimes, we're living for all around us

And never has anyone passed the roads we've traveled
And yes, never has anyone tried to force open these doors
And yes, no one has ever told someone they could do it before
God, I pray I can do for them all
Yes, I pray for my family, I can do it all

We're the last dying fate
For our family to take
Yes, I pray I can do it all

These four years have been the longest
I pray sometimes for God to let it end
When the guilt sets in and there's no way I can win
I take my pain a drop at a time
Oh, yes, sometimes, we're living for all around us

Take Me Home

Do you know when I look in your eyes I go speechless?
I may write a lot, but I can't ever speak.
When I see you a million thing come flooding in my throat
Then my tongue won't work, every facility gets weak

If I could I'd tell you all my daydreams
The nights I lie awake to watch you sleep
Something about the way you touch me
Something in the secrets your eyes keep

The stupid things I do are just to watch you smile
And because I don't know ever what to say
We lie there in the dark, holding the silence
I'm praying time to stop and you to stay

I count months, days, to hours, just to be with you
I'll wait months, days, years to see your face
When you're gone I can't be whole until you're here again
When you're away I feel you in this lonely place

So make it stop, slow it down, make you stay
Even if this moment's all we'll ever have alone
No matter where I am, where you are, what you do
You're the only one who makes me feel home
Yes, you're the only one who can take me home.

Counting Down Days

Counting down days
Until I see you again
Counting down days
Proves time is moving
It mocks and it bends
But you'll call me again
Just to say, baby, I'm counting down days

I broke down walls
Just to let you in
I fought it off
And now you're off fighting
I fell in love
With more than camo and sands
You'll hold me in
With each letter I'm writing

And how do you say goodbye to a man who may not come home again?
Baby, you're the only home I've ever wanted to be in
Baby, please come home again
This long distance is killing me

Counting down days
Until I see you again
Counting down days
Proves time is moving
It mocks and it bends
But you'll call me again
Just to say, baby, I'm counting down days