Feel This Way

There's something in your eyes
That's taking me away
I'm trying so hard to fight the urge
To say what I want to say
Like how I have a crush
On the one who doesn't see
How I'd like to settle down
With a nice boy with whom I can't breathe

And it isn't fair the way you make me smile
Because everyone can see
I feel like the high school girl I once was
Writing sappy poetry

I'm drawing hearts on paper notebooks
And I'm lighting up when they say your name
I'm singing bad love songs in my car when I'm all alone
Because no one can know I feel this way
And I'm daydreaming about your face
Your voice, your eyes, wondering how you'd taste
And I'm trying hard not to look for you when you're standing in the same room
Because no one can know I feel this way

I know what you say
You think about me
About how I talk too much
Or about how I'm at all the parties
But I can tell
Veiled in all your remarks
There's that shining in your eyes
Of a tiny little spark

And it isn't fair the way you make me smile
Because everyone can see
I feel like the high school girl I once was
Writing sappy poetry

I'm drawing hearts on paper notebooks
And I'm lighting up when they say your name
I'm singing bad love songs in my car when I'm all alone
Because no one can know I feel this way
And I'm daydreaming about your face
Your voice, your eyes, wondering how you'd taste
And I'm trying hard not to look for you when you're standing in the same room
Because no one can know I feel this way

I hate your jokes
And the messes that you make
I hate it when you're right
And the girls you take on dates
But for all that I can't stand
I can't stand how I feel about you
Would you just stop making me
Feel this silly way over you?

And it isn't fair the way you make me smile
Because everyone can see
I feel like the high school girl I once was
Writing sappy poetry

I'm drawing hearts on paper notebooks
And I'm lighting up when they say your name
I'm singing bad love songs in my car when I'm all alone
Because no one can know I feel this way
And I'm daydreaming about your face
Your voice, your eyes, wondering how you'd taste
And I'm trying hard not to look for you when you're standing in the same room
Because no one can know I feel this way
No, no one can know I feel this way

Right Thing

Don't know how to break the news
There wasn't much of a conclusion to wanting you
And I heard that you're moving on too
I guess my hazel eyes weren't enough for you

And you weren't to be much more than a rebound
Let you steal my heart, back in our hometown
I remember a cold night by the lake
Where we spoke of a distant dream lying on the planks

I hate to seem like I came on too strong but in truth
You came onto me, like I smiled back at you
And you're running after something you ain't sure what to call
Turned different shades like the leaves that fall

Just forget it, it's not me, it's always you
I can only tell you only what was the truth
You asked if you were wasting your time
I wasn't wasting yours; were you wasting mine?
My Daddy always says the right thing is the hardest thing to do

We were once just some kids smiling through
I held bottles in my hands like I held onto you
The taste of bittersweet on my lips
Just like the night of our first kiss

Saw your best friend, in the bar we met
Said you didn't know how to hold onto what you get
But you had your chance with the girl you chased
Like the wind that pushed back the hair from my face

I hate to seem like I came on too strong but in truth
You came onto me, like I smiled back at you
And you're running after something you ain't sure what to call
Turned different shades like the leaves that fall

Just forget it, it's not me, it's always you
I can only tell you only what was the truth
You asked if you were wasting your time
I wasn't wasting yours; were you wasting mine?
My Daddy always says the right thing is the hardest thing to do

Just forget it, it's not me, it's always you
I can only tell you what was once the truth
You asked if you were wasting your time
I wasn't wasting yours, were you wasting mine?
I guess I just was too hard to do
I guess the right thing was just too hard to hold onto

Love I Just Can't Find

I guess I'm not one to write love songs
But our story just can't go down
As some little thing I tell my friends about
Or the late night calls when you're out of town

Sometimes it's hard to fight the need
To hear your voice at three a.m.
When the tears are pouring like the beers I drank
To get me through the days I just can't

Sometimes you'll apologize for it
Say it's not me, but it's all you and work
I guess I need to realize time is calling
For us to somehow heal all this hurt

And when you're lonely I'll drive the hundred miles
To your house on down south on the state line
And when I'm lonely I'll call a hundred times
To tell you you're the love I just can't find

You kiss some girl in a bar tonight
Who's had one too few & reminds you
Of the girl you met in front of an old bar
In a classic city singing of Georgia true

I'll find someone to hold me through the inbetween
Of your last weekend here back home
When you told me you loved me in a parkling lot
Laced in grass and cobblestone

And when you're lonely I'll drive the hundred miles
To your house on down south on the state line
And when I'm lonely I'll call a hundred times
To tell you you're the love I just can't find

I still write you letters sometimes like I did
The year that broke the two of us apart
You sat in sand while I'll played this dumb college girl
I sent you boxes and sent us back to the start

Your pictures are in a box hidden in my closet
I pull them our sometimes to remember who we were
We make promises that someday we'll come back to that
Just know that my home is where ever you are

And when you're lonely I'll drive the hundred miles
To your house on down south on the state line
And when I'm lonely I'll call a hundred times
To tell you you're the love I just can't find
You'll always be that love I just can't find

It's Not Me

Standing in your street like a bunch of teenagers
Counting stars in an early Autumn sky
Guess when your mom says it's time to grow up
We shouldn't ask why

That old girlfriend is still haunting in your head
It ain't fair because we both know I'm sweet
Wearing my old blue jeans holding onto our hand
I'm all you could ever need

I know they say nice guys finish last
Maybe they should ask the girls next door how it feels
To be second place because your face smiles just too much
And youu don't have a mean streak
I know they say it's best to play hard to get
Maybe it's bad I'm only good with Football games
It's the kind of thing the boys all say they're looking for
But somehow it's not me

You say you miss the Tennessee nights
The old friends, the way it used to be
I fake a smile, all the while, I'm loving this place
A small pond and pine trees

This September chill makes me wish you'd keep me warm
But you're busy wondering what she's doing now
I'm trying to be coy so you can pay attention to me
But I don't know how

I know they say nice guys finish last
Maybe they should ask the girls next door how it feels
To be second place because your face smiles just too much
And youu don't have a mean streak
I know they say it's best to play hard to get
Maybe it's bad I'm only good with Football games
It's the kind of thing the boys all say they're looking for
But somehow it's not me

And we both know who you call late at night
When she breaks your heart on the phone
And we both know who you'll ask to stay
So you don't have to sleep alone
And we both know you need me here, you need me in your life
Don't you damn know why?

I know they say nice guys finish last
Maybe they should ask the girls next door how it feels
To be second place because your face smiles just too much
And youu don't have a mean streak
I know they say it's best to play hard to get
Maybe it's bad I'm only good with Football games
It's the kind of thing the boys all say they're looking for
But somehow it's not me
Why can't it be me?
Oh, why can't it just be me?

Never Again

You said never again
Would I ever sleep alone
Would I ever cry or be sad
Would I ever hold another man's hand

I said never again
Would I love another man
Would I daydream about another boy
Would I ever lie to you

And never again can only mean so many things
I guess never again can't always come true
I know never again was just some words to you
No, never again will I love you

You said never again
Would you lose your temper, loud
Would you raise your hand to me
Would you drink til you can't see

I said never again
Would I forgive you just one last time
Would I let you be mine
Would I be the outlet that you find

And never again can only mean so many things
I guess never again can't always come true
I know never again was just some words to you
No, never again, would I love you

I will never again be the bearer of your burder
No, never again will I feel your hands
Never again will you ever again find a woman like me
No, never again
No, never again

And never again can only mean so many things
And never again is all I think when I think you
I know never again was just some words to you
No, never again would I love you
No, never again would I love you

You said never again would I sleep alone
I said never again would I forgive you

Southern Night

I slid open my bedroom window
To climb on my roof & write a song
About the boy who hit me like an ocean
Made nothing like this feel wrong

I could have just sat at home & played the game
When I'm the one thing you'll never touch
But when you promised it'd all be okay
I kind of felt that pushing rush

And I don't let the boys come near
Enough to see the freckles in my eyes
But you did something to that girl
In one slow Southern night

If I broke down all my mountains
Just to let you hold onto me
Would you send me down crashing
Without ever catching me?

And if the notion suddently struck me
To tell you all my hidden truths
Would you run with the wild horses
Or would you let me be sweet for you?

And I don't let the boys come near
Enough to see the freckles in my eyes
But you did something to that girl
In one slow Southern night

And I'm writing sweet songs
To stars hanging above my porch
They haven't heard those kind of words
You could take me downtown
Beneath those falling leaves
And I might fall for you

And I don't let the boys come near
Enough to see the freckles in my eyes
But you did something to that girl
In one slow Southern night
Yes, you could have this girl
On one slow Southern night

Just Fall For Me

Met your big brother
When I was just seventeen
He gave me my first beer
My first light of green

Met your baby sister
When I was a junior in school
We'd lay by the poolside
Drinking keg beer like we were cool

And your momma used to go shopping with me
Your daddy and I used to drink coffee
In the morning air, in your screened-in porch

But you're pushing away
From everything we once were
It's been too long
For this to still hurt
And I made mistakes and it's my fault
But I've grown up since it all
So just fall for me

You did it once, just let it go
Just fall for me

I spent the first football game
At a tailgate next to you
Drinking cheap whiskey
Arguing beer pong rules

You still say how pretty
I was in that little black dress
A Georgia princess
Fell for an Army boy with no secrets

And you danced with me on my twenty-first
Washed away all the hurt
From any other boy before you

But you're pushing away
From everything we once were
It's been too long
For this to still hurt
And I made mistakes and it's my fault
But I've grown up since it all
So just fall for me

You did it once, just let it go
Just fall for me

Maybe we knew something was right all along
Back when we were young & singing silly love songs

But you're pushing away
From everything we once were
It's been too long
For this to still hurt
And I made mistakes and it's my fault
But I've grown up since it all
So just fall for me

You did it once, just let it go
Just fall for me
You once said we were meant to be
Just fall for me

How Far

There's something in this late August air
I can feel Fall just on the other side
The dusty air is comin' down behind my old Ford
On the way home from your Daddy's house

My best friend says she knows you real well
But I still get nervous in your eyes
Don't know if I should stare too long
You just may get caught up in mine

And he works on cars all day long
Cuts grass for extra cash at night
He doesn't know how far I can't seem to go
Because I'm scared of tonight
And he holds my hand in the car
And plays country on the radio
I wonder if he can see in my eyes
How far I can't seem to go

A kiss goodnight on my driver's side
Doesn't seem like much in my age
But in late night prayers I can hope
This innocent trials can just stay

And pine trees line your gravel road
Like all the lines you start to say
You say "deny" but I know
You're just scared to fall in a craze

And he works on cars all day long
Cuts grass for extra cash at night
He doesn't know how far I can't seem to go
Because I'm scared of tonight
And he holds my hand in the car
And plays country on the radio
I wonder if he can see in my eyes
How far I can't seem to go

And I'm listening to Taylor Swift songs
Wondering if one could just be ours
I need a Southern fairy tale
A kiss as the rain pours

And he works on cars all day long
Cuts grass for extra cash at night
He doesn't know how far I can't seem to go
Because I'm scared of tonight
And he holds my hand in the car
And plays country on the radio
I wonder if he can see in my eyes
How far I can't seem to go

I just wonder if you'll push me
As far as I need to go

Rosaries

So I ran a little too far when I was free
I spent too little time praying to rosaries
Was supposed to grow up, dress all in white
Walk down the aisle, have the night of my life
I got too grown just a little too fast
Learned how to drink in bars, taught the boys how to dance
And now my education is just a piece of paper
Lying under my bed, and I'm trying to put it together
I guess no one ever taught in class
What to do after, how to stop the crash
And now, I'm all alone, living back home
All my best friends, well, they're married & gone

So maybe I ran too far when I was free
Guess I spent too little time praying to rosaries
But I never lost the girl I am within
Playing with Barbies, hoping for a Ken
Watching Cinderella, just a little too much
But I guess I can't believe in love
Yeah, I guess I lost my heart to a whiskey label
Thrown through windshields, thrown off the table
And now I'm twenty-three, trying to find my way
Guess they never tell you what they want to say

So maybe I ran too far when I was free
Spent too little time praying to rosaries
But my mommy promised that I'd be okay
So I keep waking up, pushing every day
And I told my dad, someday I'll be better
So I run around, trying to put it together
And I never found a man to treat me
Like I was the winning ticket in life's lottery
So I just came home to my hometown
To find some boys running all around
And when one promised me some kind of tomorrow
No one knew of all the money he borrowed
And the time he took his anger out on me
Guess it was just time for me to run free

So maybe I ran just a little to far when I was free
Maybe I spent too little time praying to rosaries
But God is somewhere, something forgiving
And Church ain't nothing but burning beginnings
So I ran a little too far when I was free
So I stopped praying to rosaries
So I ran to boys, books, and broken hearts
So I stopped praying for all new starts
So I couldn't save the money to get out
So I don't own the car, the boat, or the house
So my loans are long, and my degree is a fake
So I spent years chasing an endless fate

So I ran a little too far when I was free
So I spent too little time praying to rosaries
Just play the song, I'll light the candles
Put a vinyl on, stare at the turntable for hours
Take a sip, a shower, and new night
Promise myself it'll be alright

So maybe I ran too far when I was free
Maybe I spent too little time with rosaries
But I'm a good woman, just a little broke
When it comes to money, a good heart, a good note
I came back home, found my family
Found an old Bible, my rosary
Just sat down with a pen & a page
I just refuse to act my age.

Moving

In this summer air you're moving
Taking me just one step higher
Sitting on your backsteps I'm moving
Just watching that full moon go higher

And with a kiss goodnight, I'm leaving
But we both know who will call first
Taking backroads through the steamed pines
En route to my old smalltown

And I'm dreading the day I can't hold back anymore
And I'm hating the fact that you already know me
Better than most of these locals
Wandering around with gossip about these streets
And I'm dreading the day I know my dumb mouth
Will tell you everything to know about me
But until that day come crashing
I'm just going to keep moving

Park my car, turn the headlights out
Walking through the dew-soaked grass
Up the steps of my folks' front porch
Hoping they won't wake & hear me

It's too late to do much but lie here
But my brain it just keeps moving
Into dark dreams of what could soon be
And my past is just a memory

And I'm dreading the day I can't hold back anymore
And I'm hating the fact that you already know me
Better than most of these locals
Wandering around with gossip about these streets
And I'm dreading the day I know my dumb mouth
Will tell you everything to know about me
But until that day come crashing
I'm just going to keep moving

In my sheets I wonder if you'd ever say
The same things running me into a panic
Hoping I'm not the only one awake
Hoping that you're in your head moving

And I'm dreading the day I can't hold back anymore
And I'm hating the fact that you already know me
Better than most of these locals
Wandering around with gossip about these streets
And I'm dreading the day I know my dumb mouth
Will tell you everything to know about me
But until that day come crashing
I'm just going to keep moving

Coast

Sometimes I think I should keep my mouth shut
Thoughts keep spewing out like lava onto ash
Just hoping something might light you up
Just hoping you can make me feel a little less bad
It's dark tonight, but I can still see stars
And the air is thick, hello Southern summer
Your eyes are something I can feel pressing on my skin
I'm not going to beg you to take me in

What are we moving against?
Why do I feel like I'm pushing so damn hard
Just to find something that feels a little more real?
If you ask, I might let you have my heart

And broken windows, they don't ever heal
The cracks just spread with time til they fall
If I had known you in a past moment
Maybe I'd have something for you to feel
Tell me a story, make me relax
I don't know how to be that girl anymore
But with this bottle I feel less lonely
With that bottle you're opening a door

What are we moving against?
Why do I feel like I'm pushing so damn hard
Just to find something that feels a little more real?
If you ask, I might let you have my heart

So ask me, just push me, because I want to
I want to be someone a little less numb
Want to lie in a sandy darkness on the coast
Want to run away, do you want to be lost?

What are we moving against?
Why do I feel like I'm pushing so damn hard
Just to find something that feels a little more real?
If you ask, I might let you have my heart
Tell me you just want my heart

Someone

I wish I could just feel okay
Without a few drinks simmering inside
Take the frames off your walls
That wood won't ever look the same
I don't know how you faked this for so long
I can't even fake a smile
You ran away to some girl with blue eyes
I wonder now if she knows your lies
I never once ran away from home
Only back here when things got hard
I sometimes miss that camo-covered man
The hometown hero who still loves me anyways
How can he see right through me
Yet embrace me and all my holes
That I've fallen into, every damn day
My mom keeps promising it'll be okay
I hope you feel guilty for everything you did
I think you might have broke my heart
Not in the metaphorical sort of manner
But the kind you just can't fix
A boy asked me out today
Since when did text messages become the way
What happened to the gentlemen
The flowers, and picking me up in your truck
Someone just open a damn door
Someone just hold my hands
Someone take care of me, just once,
Promise me it'll be okay
I'm sick of lighting candles, spending my nights
With a bottle of wine and Ryan Adams' songs
To ease this pain, erase your memories
But I wake up and it's still just the same
Someone take me out of here
Someone write for me
Someone told me that my songs were too sad
Then someone needs to give me a reason to breathe
My sister tells me what her world has become
And I swear it'll never be that way again
I will never promise a man I'll always stay
They just take advantage that way
No one is ever going to read down this far
And maybe this isn't as well-written as I'd like
But this old cd is on repeat in the background
No amount of ink will drown this out
Someone say you need me
Someone sit on my porch
Someone once promised me forever
And now someone is all gone
I once drove too fast down Graves Road
Late at night, after a few drinks
In my old Ford, to see your face
And make sure that you were okay
I once told my mom I was at my best friends
Just to sleep in your arms
On your mattress, lying on the ground
Of the bedroom loft at your parents house
I wrote you songs. I pet your cat.
I spent days with your sister
Giving her advice on the boys in school
I bought your sister-in-law a Christmas present
I held your hand when you cried
Someone ask him why he lied
Someone tell him you killed her inside
I refuse to let you know I'm weak
But sometimes I still just cry
You won, you won, you broke the girl
Who broke down all her walls to love you
Someone hit him in the face
Someone put your hands around his throat
Someone tell him he ain't that big
Nor is he as cute as I swore he was
I don't know how to end this
Somehow I let you walk away with my all
Even after I brought you all your things
You still kept my clothes
It's just like you to take my things away
It's just like me to give you too much time
So let's somehow make this the end
I'm all alone now and I feel just fine
Someone tell him this is ending
Someone end this with me.

Come Down

Sitting on my same old bed
Listening to the mixtape you sent
It's been a year
Why are you still haunting here?
Remember when I promised
There would be no more words
But in these songs, you're all I heard

I'm still alone in this smalltown
His love, it wasn't what I thought I found
It's been a year
Since I dropped my last tear
Out in your parking lot
Down the street from where we worked
I can tell you now, it still hurts

And I don't know why I can't just seem to let go
My daddy swears it's a flaw
Hold my faults up, yes, she's still in your life
And nothing really has changed
I threw rocks at your bedroom window once
And everything must come down
I guess I just need to come down

I hate the memories of his truck
The thoughts of dirt roads & lover's luck
I hate memories of our roadtrips
And the taste of our first kiss
He hated your ghost
And I hate his now
Why can't this all just slow down?

And I don't know why I can't just seem to let go
My daddy swears it's a flaw
Hold my faults up, yes, she's still in your life
And nothing really has changed
I threw rocks at your bedroom window once
And everything must come down
I guess I just need to come down

So I un-pin your pictures from the corkboard
Hanging in my bedroom at my parents' house
I had to come back here to run away from being free
And I thought in his love I had found everything
But I found nothing

And I don't know why I can't just seem to let go
My daddy swears it's a flaw
Hold my faults up, yes, she's still in your life
And nothing really has changed
I threw rocks at your bedroom window once
And everything must come down
I guess I just need to come down

All I Really Need

I just wanted all your attention
Just for a second, pretend your mine
I don't want to fall in love again
Just wanted someone to fill the time
I know you're never going to be the one
Just wanted one person to hold onto
If you could just fill in this loneliness
If you could just pretend it's me and you

I know you have your own battles
I know you sit in the dark at night
I know how you feel the emptiness
I know you just want to do what's right
Don't you ever just want to feel that heat?
I just wanted you for my soul's sake
I didn't want you to be my boyfriend
I just wanted to feel you til I break

So just lie here
And just call me
Just say I'm all you ever need
Just lie to me babe
Just one more time
This is all I really need

I just wanted all your attention
I wanted your late night phone calls
The texts begging me to be by your side
The words pretending all your falls
I know I'm nothing like your type
I probably smile just too much
So don't believe that I'm falling now
So don't think I'm in too much a rush

I feel the black on your skin
From the bruises every dumb girl gave
You just wanted what I wanted more
Let's just lie here in your silly cave
Making shadows on your walls
Faking every single brown eye stare
Let's just hold onto each other tonight
Why can't we just pretend to care?

So just lie here
And just call me
Just say I'm all you ever need
Just lie to me babe
Just one more time
This is all I really need

So just lie here
And just call me
Baby, you're all I'll ever need
Just lie to me babe
Just this one time
This is all I really need

I smell the smoke coming off your skin
Don't ask what all I'll give in

So just lie here
And just call me
Just say I'm all you ever need
Just lie to me babe
Just one more time
This is all I really need

Athens

Just like an old country song
Woke up, knew something's wrong
I ain't where I'm supposed to be
Who's that breathing next to me?
Don't know where my old jeans went
Don't wanna know the rules I bent
Try to find my phone, but it's just dead
Just wanna go home, get out of this bed

I don't know where I am right now
But that it's a short, short ride back to that college town

Thank you Athens, for the headache again
All the regrets running through my head
Don't know why I keep comin' here
I know it ain't all the cheap beer
My friends and I, acted like fools
Don't know how I ever made it through school
I know, in two days I'll forget these mistakes
And come back to Athens, and the rules it breaks

Found my jeans under the nightstand
Tried to walk out, but I don't think I can
Is this a trailer? I think it's a doublewide
Don't even want to walk outside
That sun is banging on my brain
Noticed on my shirt a Natty stain
Where's my best friend? Get on up
Gotta get out of here in their truck

I don't know where I am right now
But that it's a short, short ride back to that college town

Thank you Athens, for the headache again
All the regrets running through my head
Don't know why I keep comin' here
I know it ain't all the cheap beer
My friends and I, acted like fools
Don't know how I ever made it through school
I know, in two days I'll forget these mistakes
And come back to Athens, and the rules it breaks

This Georgia town ain't that bad in June
Just wait til football season, you'll wake up and won't be able to move

Thank you Athens, for the headache again
All the regrets running through my head
Don't know why I keep comin' here
I know it ain't all the cheap beer
My friends and I, acted like fools
Don't know how I ever made it through school
I know, in two days I'll forget these mistakes
And come back to Athens, and the rules it breaks

Imaginary Friend

I am sitting here
Listening to these sad songs
Just drinking beer
Trying to stay clear
Of your memories
Everyone says to forget
But I can't help it
You had a part of me

But I guess the man I loved was someone you made up
How do you get over someone who never loved you?

But tonight I'm going to dream of you
Remember all the sweet things you do
But when I wake
You'll be still be the boy I Hate
You faked it all this time
and held me through those hard times
But you really never were
The man you promised you could be
And I suppose
I am just missing
My imaginary friend

Sometimes I miss your hands
Holding on to mine
But you weren't really a man
It didn't take me much time
You put your palms against my throat
I walked away, feelin' choked
By these lonely blues
How did I ever love you?

But tonight I'm going to dream of you
Remember all the sweet things you do
But when I wake
You'll be still be the boy I Hate
You faked it all this time
and held me through those hard times
But you really never were
The man you promised you could be
And I suppose
I am just missing
My imaginary friend

And now this new girl is walking around pretending to be me
She has my t-shirts, but you have my memories
Just know no matter what, she will never be me

I gotta ask
In this empty dark
How did you\
Ever let it go this far?

But tonight I'm going to dream of you
Remember all the sweet things you do
But when I wake
You'll be still be the boy I hate
You faked it all this time
And held me through those hard times
But you really never were
The man you promised you could be
And I suppose
I am just missing
My imaginary friend

Yes I suppose
You were never really real to begin with
No you never
Were truly a real man

But tonight I refuse to dream of you
I'll only remember the things you put me through
Your hands hurting me
You still just be a memory
You faked it all this time
and held me through those hard times
But you really never were
The man you promised you could be
And I know
Yes I know
And I know
I'll stop missing
My imaginary man

You were just imaginary
You made it up for me

You were never were real

And I know
You were just imaginary
You faked everything
Yes, you ain't real
No, you weren't never really real
Yes I know
You were just
An imagainary friend

Darlin'

I know this may not be lady-like and I know what they're going to say, but when I think but what all you've done--it doesn't matter anyway. Just gotta put these feelings down in ink and make sure our hometown knows the truth: that when I think about us together, all I think is "screw you."

You made a promise,
And put it on my left hand.
You swore you loved me
Swore we were perfect
But all that remains
Is your promises' tan-line
Guess you didn't mean it
But I refuse to cry

So, darlin', screw you
And your faking charm
Your gifts are garbage
Your pictures are gone
Yes, damn your smile
And your lying eyes
Nothing we had was true
So, darlin', screw you

You swore you'd change
In your drunken stumble
I tried real hard
To believe your slurrin' words
But "I love you"
Isn't in a bottle
Guess you didn't mean it
Good thing I'm gone

So, darlin', screw you
And your faking charm
Your gifts are garbage
Your pictures are gone
Yes, damn your smile
And your lying eyes
Nothing we had was true
So, darlin', screw you

And I'm gonna make a wood pile in my daddy's yard
Gonna use your clothing for fuel
Gonna take your pictures and throw them on top
That's what you get for makin' me feel like a fool

So, darlin', screw you
And your faking charm
Your gifts are garbage
Your pictures are gone
Yes, damn your smile
And your lying eyes
Nothing we had was true
So, darlin', screw you

Yellow Flowers

I waited a whole day
To hear them call my name
Walked past a quiet woman
Starring with black eyes
Into a door, into a room
Where they all smile at you

"How are you dear?
Give me your hand.
Where are you from?
My, you drove a long way,"
My clothes are huddled
In a bag by my feet
You said you'd wait for me
And drive when it's time to leave

I guess your yellow flowers
Didn't live to cover up the death
I guess the tears I cried
Couldn't save what we left
At the end of the day
It's still what we gave away

On the ride home
I admired the rolling hills
Smelled those north Georgia pines
Saw the small airport in woods
As you held my hand
And promised, "Never again,"

I guess your yellow flowers
Didn't live to cover up the death
I guess the tears I cried
Couldn't save what we left
At the end of the day
It's still what we gave away

I know what we did was right
But I don't think we'll be alright
Oh, I know I did the right thing
But I don't think we'll forget anything
Do you think you could forgive anything?

I guess your yellow flowers
Didn't live to cover up the death
I guess the tears I cried
Couldn't save what we left
At the end of the day
It's still what we gave away

Hangover

Should have known better than to love a man named after a whiskey
Sure tastes good in the evening night
But all those hangovers in college should have taught me
I'd regret that drink in the morning light

Should have known the numbness can't be that good
Should have seen you were hell-bound
And just like every crystal glass has ever shown
Nothings clear when seen through amber-brown

No, you aren't what they'd call "the good stuff,"
And your brand isn't as good as red label
With all the strength in your after-bite
You don't do anything but make me unstable

I should have known my knees would grow weak
Should have seen through my drunken haze
But falling on the floor and waking up broken
Only has to happen once for me to break this phase

And I won't be your whiskey girl
And I won't be here anymore, if you please
And I don't give a damn how blind I was
I'm sober now, and I should have seen

Should have known better than to love a man named after a whiskey
Sure tastes good in the evening night
But all those hangovers in college should have taught me
I'd regret that drink in the morning light
Oh, I regret drinking you last night

I Just Don't Know

Take your time
Be slow when you think
Take breaths between each wink

I remember
Blonde hair in between pink nails
Brown eyes, and apricot mouth

You never know how far away your moon is
Or just how fast this star can just come crashing down
I suppose I was supposed to be prepared for this
I thought we were grown, but now I just don't know

You held my gaze
For just a second too long
But now this parking lot is all I see

Looking between blinds
Trying to read your lines
Trying to find my time, just trying to breathe

You never know how far away your sun is
Or just how fast it'll all just can come crashing down
I suppose I was supposed to be prepared for this
I thought we were grown, but now I just don't know

And you know those Indie bands won't ever save your soul
And you know those guitar strings won't hold a damn thing
Take your old cds out their sleeves, place your heart back in
You just won't win

You never know how far away your moon is
Or just how fast that star can just come crashing down
I suppose I was supposed to be prepared for this
I thought we were grown, but now I just don't know

Stronger than Anyone

Grew up in a small town
Just south of Georgia's big city lights
Were never expected much
Graduate, get married, live a settled life
There were those big homes
We all sit and wonder who owns
The town's kings
All won State on the football team

From far away
It seems silly to think
That we're all okay
Going slow on our one main road
But we took in this southern air
Smelt the pines and the county fair
Grew us up to be stronger than anyone

We're the underdogs
But we come home after work
Feed the dogs and cook some dinner
Kiss our families hello
We're just the underdogs
No one ever expected much of us
But we grew up in this small town covered in red mud
Grew up stronger than anyone

Took the bus to school
Down an old gravel road
Unpaved but still our way home
When the bell would ring
Some of us rode in big trucks
Parked on the back line
Of the high school and at lunch time
We all wanted to be sitting outside

From far away
It seems silly to think
That we're all okay
Going slow on our one main road
But we took in this southern air
Smelt the pines and the county fair
Grew us up to be stronger than anyone

We're the underdogs
But we come home after work
Feed the dogs and cook some dinner
Kiss our families hello
We're just the underdogs
No one ever expected much of us
But we grew up in this small town covered in red mud
Grew up stronger than anyone

I left here after graduation
Expecting big dreams
Wanted to live out my future
In bars singing
You left for baseball
But came back here and found me
I guess all this smalltown
Made us meant to be

We're the underdogs
But we come home after work
Feed the dogs and cook some dinner
Kiss our families hello
We're just the underdogs
No one ever expected much of us
But we grew up in this small town covered in red mud
Grew up stronger than anyone

Guess

I guess I can guess who came & picked you off your feet
When you swore I was the one who pushed you down
I'm sure she said I'm not pretty, and it never meant a thing
I'm sure she said you deserved more
I can guess where you went to drink away the memories
And I'm sure you found a new good nght kiss
I guess you never told her what was really going on
And what all those candlelit nights really meant
Sonmetimes I think you could have been my friend
And sometimes I wonder what it is you do
Now that I moved on and started back on growing up
But then I remember you're just some old songs
You're Ryan Adams singing to me in the dark tonight
And saying, broken hearts can't ever mend
But I knew who you were and I can guess you know it now
You & I were only meant to end
I can guess the color of your eyes when you look in the sun
And I know exactly what shades you'll put on
To block the lights and dim the summer in your face
With the windows down driving too fast in your car
I bet she said I wasn't pretty anymore
And I can guess you probably held up all my faults
Took me down line by line, each skin cell a fail
I bet she will always love you though all of this
You won't cry, you're too good, and I bet you'll say
I just need some time alone to work this out
You once shone like white sand on a paradise island
But now that past all too far gone
You'll say I should have kept in touch
I suppose it was rude to leave like I did
But now I found a man, and I don't have to take drugs
Just to calm me down so I can believe in love
He holds my hand walking through the grocery store
And opens doors and is a perfect gentleman
He's learned to love my messed up heart and all my pasts
So you're just a memory that helped build the worman I am
Maybe sometimes those college days still haunt me
Like dark ghosts in the shadows that he fills
But he looks in my hazel eyes and sees the truth
I'm just a girl looking for life without guilt
So take this as whatever you think I am
I know sometimes I deserve those words
But I can guess you're probaly already over me anyways
And our lives are better off with out the toxic days
Break this off, print it, ink in proof
I'm done writing you anymore damn songs
It was only a mistake, they happen all the time
And I can guess our memories have hung around too long
I can guess you've been hanging around too long

Move On Again

I just wanted to lie in my bed
Write about my broken hearts and move on
Last night I lit a candle
I bought from the Wal-mart five dollar rack

Do you remember wandering through their shelves
Late at night, with nowhere to go?
In that town the lights had finally gone dim
Just long enough to let the moon go down

I broke off those dark nights
I ended where the neon bar ends
And no longer will we watch the girls
Walk without a sense of where they've been

And I won't be broken
For the past I once I had
It took a few days
And everything was fine
You wrote letters
But you couldn't sign your name
Maybe it's time to move on again
Just maybe it's time to move on again

The dark truck cab rattles
On the rocks under my folks mailbox
They take it in, each day
And across this benchseat, you're so far away

The smell of grease & oil
Just can't take over your summer skin
And the brown warmth in July
You once held within

I still tell myself
I'm prettier than that girl you kissed
Just to get through my day
I guess I'm a hypocrite

And I won't be broken
For the past I once I had
It took a few days
And everything was fine
You wrote letters
But you couldn't sign your name
Maybe it's time to move on again
Just maybe it's time to move on again